R3P2D25: weight 178.2

I'm up a pound. Told you I suck! Yesterday at our training they served us these gross wraps. I was hungry and didn't plan ahead...I should have left and went to McDonalds for a chicken salad. Then I would be down today! But I ate it. And I ate the veggies out of a pasta salad, but not much pasta~ it was pretty gross too. Then I proceeded to eat the cookie, and feeling grossly unsatisfied ate too much candy that was scattered all over the table. That was probably the stupidest cheat I've had, so NOT worth it! I will do better today!!

R3P2D24: weight 177.2

I have been so busy, and I'm not even working full time yet. My friends think I have dropped off the face of the planet, well I assume that but haven't talked to any of them in weeks , lol! It is a little disappointing how much I suck this round. I am not even at LIW FROM R2. I have. Lost 11 lbs in 24 days. Oh well, its my own fault. But I am back on track now. Next week is going to be chaleenging. We have a lot of trainings/meetings as the school year starts back up, and that means a lot of food shoved in front of us. I have a training today that lunch is included, but have no idea what it will be. I may be skipping lunch!

I was ready to just quit a couple days ago. I was just done. But I went to the forum and found lots of inspiration to keep going, and have recomitted myself. I found 1 post extremely helpful about making permanent changes. It said if you are in P2, just counting down the days until you can have a Big Mac again you are setting yourself up to fail. I realized I was doing that, feeling deprived and sorry for myself. Instead now I am focusing on the yummy stuff I can eat, my health and looking forward to Grammy's mug cake and chicken breast in P3!

R3P2D20: weight 178.6

I have been so busy, I haven't really had a chance to breathe! Its going to be worse when school startsup and I'm back to workk full time. Not to mention I have failed miserably at my goal. I only have 13 days until then. So if I am really, really good I miight be able to hit around 165 before then. I would be happy with that!

You ccan tell from my weight I am still in the same place. I got frustrated after stalling the 3rd day in a row, and ate italian food. I was up 3 pounds, but have brought it back down. So not worth it! I was so sick feeling overnight and the whole next day. I am going to do my best.

R3P2D16: weiight 178.2

Ugh! Exactly the same. I know stalls are expected around this stage. In the game. I ate beef and tomatoes yesterday, and even though I've never noticed a problem with them before I will need to keep an eye on it. I only have 17 days left till I go back to work, and I was hoping I would be in the 150s. It doesn't look possible anymore, I feel like I will be lucky to even be in the 160s. Siigh...oh well. Its all better that 245, right!!?? :)

R3P2D15: weight 178.2

I made it through the twins' party, and didn't eat a thing! I took one bite of a pork carnita, and it was soooo yummy. I really wannted a cupcake and a taco, but I was so good. I even shocked myself! I ate a Wendy's apple chickenn salad for lunch, without bleu cheese, dressing or the pecans. It was good! And I dropped another pound. Yay me!

R3P2D14: weight 179.4

I am up .2, but still in the 170s :) I'm really glad that stupid donut didn't doo a lot of damage. I only ate one meal yesterday, and skipped my fruit. I had a lean beef patty and tomatoes. Today. Is the twins party. I have been so busy all week, and today is going to be crazy. I have way too much to do, and not enough time to get it done...

R3P2D13: weight 179.2

Well, only 1/2 pound. I knew my lucky streak had to come to an end sometime. Sigh...I'm happy that its still in the right direction though. Today is the twins' birthday, and they wanted donuts. I have banned Krispy Kreme, but figured for their birthday I would make an exception. I said no to my sample, yay me! But....ended up eating a chocolate cake donut when we got home :( I have the urge to really blow it, since I already have, but will do damage control the rest of the day. Then maybe I won't be up too much in the morning. It is not worth it!!

R3P2D12; weight 179.8

OMG!!! That's nearly 2 pounds again! And I am now back in the 170's! I am so stoked!s :) I repeated yesterday, almost to a "T". My cousin wanted to meet at chuck e cheese, and we still had several tokens left, so I agreed. I ate the salad bar with chicken, cucmbers and strawberries. I don't know if its just a coincidence, or if I should plan on eating there every day, lol!!

R3P2D11: weight 181.6

Wowza! Two more pounds! I will definately be in the 170s by this weekend now! Yesterday I spent several hours cleaning my den/storage roomm, and trying to get it organized. I took the kids to chuck E Cheese for lunch, and planned on just having a salad. I was surprised to see you could add chickenn breast to the salad bar, and there were STRAWBERRIES on it! It made it worth it :) so I ate a ton of lettuce, cucumbers (yes, I sometimes mix veggies) and strawberries, along w a perfect little portion of chicken. For dinner I just ate a little shrimp, I was not hungry at all!

R3D10: weight 183.6

Yay!Two pounds! I am going to be back in the 170s by this weekend. I am really disappoinntted in myself, I have only lost about 5 pounds in 10 days, and that's AFtER loading. Oh well, I guess that's about average for women. Damn PB. Why does it call my name? I have been really goood after that sandwich last week, and got through the hardest weekend of the summer. I will stay on track! Only about three weeks until I return to work, I don't have a moment to waste!

R3P2D9: weight 185.8

Well, I am back from my camping trip, and I did VERY good! I am so pround of myself!! I am up a pound from all weekend, but I am not worried. I think it is due to the fact that I got sunburned and I've heard that causes you to retain water, and I ate turkey. My foil packs got water-logged in the cooler, and were disgusting and slimy looking. So I ate the roasted turkey breast for lunch yesterday, since I thought it would be better than the ham. The only thing else bad I ate was a couple of marshmallows Saturday night. So all in all, I think it turned out pretty good :) and I know it will melt off!

R3P2D7:weight ???

Well, I've made it through about half of my camping trip, and I have not cheated even one bite! Yesterday for lunch I ate a chicken breast and an apple,and then for dinner I had a foil pack with radishes and tilapia. It was pretty good, but the radishes got soggy. I like themm much better roasted. So far today I passed on tons of yumminess and have only eaten an apple. I have a foil pack with chicken and asparagus ready to go for lunch. I can do this!!

R3P2D6: weight 184.6

If you give a dieter some jelly, she'll probably want some peanut butter to go wiith it. And chances are, if you give her the peanut butter, she'll ask for some bread.

I made my 3yo neice a PBJ sandwich, and when she took a bite the jelly squished out. So I instinctively took it and licked up the dripping jelly. I had to save her! Anyway, then I just couldn't get it out of my mind and ended up making myself a sandwich. I suck so bad!! And here I am sitting, planning meals for our family camping trip. I don't know how I am going to get through this weekend. I have my own meals planned, but everyone else is going to be eating yummy stuff, not to mention the S'mores. And what's really bad is TOM is making decisions rite now. Ugh! Oh, well. I am going to have a good time and stay on protocol as much as I can. If I fall off the wagon, Mondays a new day, right?!

R3P2D5: weight 183.8

Ugh! What a tiny loss. TOM is visiting, and is insisting I eat something chocolate. It is driving me crazy!! Yesterday I was really good. I took a chicken breast, a tomato and strawberries to work with me. Then for dinner I ate filet mignon and a salad. So I am not sure if my tiny loss is due to TOM, the tomato, or the beef. I have never had a problem with tomatoes or beef in the past, but you never know. I am feeling so bloated and irritible, and crampy. I think I'll take some midol and a nap...

R3P2D4: weight 184.2

Well, another pound! Yesterday I went to Siver Dollar City, and the girls begged to do the cave tour. My legs hurt today from all those stairs! Especially because Isabel freaked out about the long narrow ones and I carried her on my back! I was almost afraid I'd gain from water retention. Because we were in Branson, I was forced to eat out. Went to McD's and got a chicken salad. I picked off most of the cheese and bacon, and ate it without dressing. I had an apple in my backpack and ate it for a snack while in the park. I also ate 1 pork rind and peaanut brittle sample. And I was good! For dinner I had chicken drenched in Franks hot sauce, brocolli (off. Original protocol) and strawberries dipped in Truvia. OMG that stuff is GOOD! I don't even know if it is legal on P2, it has the texture and taste of real sugar! I hope it is okay. It is expensive, but it was on sale at Mamma Jeans, so I thought I'd try it.

R3P2D3: weight 185.2

Now that's what I'm talking about!! 2.2 pounds, yay!! I hope this continues :) yesterday I had. My "miracle omelet". It was OFF PROTOCOL, but works for me. I put a tiny bit of coconut oil, some broccoli, onions and tomatoes and sautee. Then I take my beaten eggs (4, but only one yolk) and pour over the veggies. It was yummy! Then for dinner I broiled some tilapia and radishes. It was good too! I tipped the cookie sheet and half of my radishes fell off, I was so mad, but oh well! I also had just one apple. I never got around to eating my strawberries after dinner.

R3P2D2: weight 187.4

Well, I'm down just a tad over a pound. I was really hoping for at least 2 pounds, especially this early on. Oh well, sigh. I am already getting addicted to seeing the scale move agaibn. It kind of sucks that it is going to take almost 2 weeks just to get back to my LIW. That is actually very discouraging. But I guess I have to waste those days so I can get past that number and closer to my goal. I'm hoping for a bigger loss tomorrow! (Fingers crossed)

R3P2D1: Weight 188.6

Ouch! That's 13.6 pounds over LIW. That really sucks!! But it includes several weeks of eating pretty much whatever I wanted, and loading so I guess I'm glad its not worse. Today is VLCD1, and I'm kind of glad because I felt so uncomfortably full last night. Of course I still managed to squeeeze in a jitterbug from Andys right before bed :) also, I ate at Nakato (hibachi restaurant) with a friend, and I know there was a LOT of sodium that could be causing more weight today. I'm hoping for a really big loss tomorrow! I am prepared to start this round, my fridge is full of foods I need to "cook up" today.

I'm back!!

Hello everyone! It has been a VERY long time since I posted! I just started round 3 yesterdy. I have no idea what I weigh right now, I didn't want to know exactly how much loading is going to cause me to gain. So I am just going to weigh tomorrow, VLCD1 and go from there. I hope I haven't lost all my faithful followers! I've missed you guys!

Well, my stay at Disney is over :'( It was so mmuch fun! Time to start planning mmy next trip...
I have not been watching what I eat very well, but overall quantity is low. We have been walking so much I hope it evens out. We drove to Fort Myers beach last night, and plan to hit up the beach today, yay! I have to watch my intake now that I won't be walking all day long. We're staying at my friends grandpas house, and he has a scale so I decided to hop on it. It said 174!! That makes me so excited, as I thought I had gained 10 or even 15 pounds! I know its not MY scale and is probably off a bit, but its at least in the right ballpark!!

im at Disney World!!

I can't believe I'm actually here!! We flew in yesterday and of course had to hit the Magic Kingdom for a few hours!! When I left yesterday I weighed 178...I am hoping to still be under 180 when I get back. I am sticking to low carb as much as possible to allow some treats in there ;-) everyone else in my party is still asleep, so I am enjoying some solitude by the pool. I just ate a yummy veggie omelet and some bacon. There are so many delicious looking bakery treats around here that I could just scream!! I will be strong until I find sommething I REALLY want...like that Dole Whip tomorrow. Mmmmmm.

R2P3D20: Weight 177

Well, I can't believe tomorrow is my last "official" day of phase 3. And I am right where I need to be at 2 pounds within LIW!! Yay!! Yesterday I ate a few handfuls of M&M's and some kisses with almonds- that was my healthy lunch! And then for dinner we stopped at Purple Burrito and brought home some carne asada nachos. I ate quite a few chips, but all of the toppings were legal. And I still dropped a pound! This gives me hope for phase 4. I plan to pretty much stay in phase 3 mode, with a few additions. Hmmm. What to add first?!

R2P3D19: Weight 178

Well, I'm still at 178. I had lots of social events over the past week and ate lots of carbs (mostly sugar). I found myself at 183 and did a steak day...lost 5 pounds!! And then this morning I had lost another. As long as I can stay below 180 I will be happy. I am not sure when I will be able to start my next round. I am wanting to ASAP, but summer travel plans may put it off until August.

I am leaving for DisneyWorld in 7 days! I am so excited I can barely stand it. I'm going to try to do mostly protein before I leave. I have also researched menus and have a list of places I can get grilled chicken salads. I do plan to splurge on a few treats, but stick to low-carb for the most part. I am hoping this strategy will keep my weight in the range I want.

R2P312: Weight 178

Well, I gained about a pound and a half, and am now 3 pounds over LIW. I'm not too worried, because my oldest son graduated last night (YAY!!) and we went out for dinner afterwards. So we ate really late, and I know my body hasn't really had time to process it. I am still planning to do a steak day today, if I can handle it. Right now I feel so stuffed still, so I'm hoping it will be easy. IF not, I'll eat some protein and call it a protein day! I'm hoping to be below LIW after today. I think by the time I lose the water weight from last night and then the steak day results, it might just happen...

R2P311: Weight 176.6

I am still in my weight range...and shocked! I worked 14 1/2 hours yesterday, and was feeling pretty streesed by dinner-time. I decided to walk to Scramblers and get a perfectly legal omelet, but when I got there they were closed! Their new hours stink! So the only other option without driving somewhere was the gas station. So I went in and decided to get some beef jerky, maybe some almonds....somehow ended up with a bag full of junk! Having the girls with me explains it a little :) So I ate a BBQ beef sandwich, some cheetos. and a package of suzy-q's. I have not had those in forever. I wanted to kick myself, but oh well. In the name of damage control I didn't eat anything else, even though the girls were BEGGING for Andy's custard- and I REALLY wanted some. Nope, didn't stop. I thought for sure I'd be doing a steak day today, but am pleasantly surprised. I NEVER want to do another steak day, the SUCK!!! I'm going to do mostly protein today, but I did bring an apple.

R2P3D7: Weight 175.2

Today is the last day of week 1! I have been stable all week, despite a few "no-no's". Last round I had gained 3-4 pounds right off the bat and did a lot of steak days. I am hoping I won't have to do ANY!! I have learned so much during this diet...I have learned that I can do things in moderation. Before, I would think that if I had one little slip-up, the whole day was ruined so why even try. Or I would sit down and eat nearly an entire package of something. But now I am confident I will not gain the weight back, as I have realized these things about myself. Also, the diet has a remedy built right in, so if I do go a little crazy, I know I can do protein days or steak days to catch up quickly. I plan to do one more round of hCG, probably in August.

Yesterday I ate 2 boiled eggs for breakfast, a cheesetick and some almonds for a snack. Then for lunch I ate a chicken breast that I stuffed with pepper jack cheese, and melted provolone on the top of. I ate a whole avocado with it, and it was soooooo yummers!! Then for dinner I has some salad with real ranch and scallops cooked in butter. Today is a picnic-meeting at my work, and the menu is scary. I brought a bag of BBQ pork rinds (I think I'll just put them on the chip table and share the love, lol! I also brought a mug cake with cream cheese frosting, so I won't be temted to eat the cookies, brownies, cupcakes and all that crap my work will provide. Oh, and I need to remember to get a drink on my way- at Wednesday's meeting everything had HFCS in it- NOTHING was diet friendly...

R2P3D6: Weight 176.0

Ouch! I gained 2.2 pounds. At least I am still in the window of 2 lbs from LIW though! For lunch yesterday I ate a chicken salad sandwich on a croissant and a big salad that our office had catered in. The croissant was so delicious! I also ate a piece of key lime cheesecake. Then for seconds...my friend and I split a turkey sandwich on a roll and a piece of chocolate meringue pie. It was good!! I did good the rest of the day...ate an omelet for breakfast and a chicken breast for dinner. But I was eating some "pork rinds" last night with dh (he had fried them up fresh) and after eating A LOT of them he made a comment about me being aloowed to eat them. I was like "of course, they're just pork fat...." and he said they were not. Turns out they were duros de harina- harina meaning FLOUR!!!! Arghhhhh! So I googled them and sure enough, there are more than 30 carbs per ounce. I could kick myself. Oh well, at least I don't have to do a steak day and my weight is still in the "OK" range! Whew!

R2P3D5: Weight 173.8

Yay! I'm back in the 173's :)

Yesterday I had lots of creamer in my coffee, an omelet with ham and cheese and some almonds for breakfast. For lunch I had a big salad with REAL RANCH dressing (YUM!) some rotisserie chicken with pepper jack cheese melted on it and an avocado. I also ate a sugar-free jello mousse cup. Then for dinner I just had 2 big pieces of steak, and didn't want my veggie. I need to buy some more fuji apples and make sure I'm eating one every day...

R2P3D4: Weight 174.0

Woohoo! Yesterday I weighed 177, so I lost 3 pounds! I went to Silver Dollar City on Sunday, and gained 2 pounds, so I did a protein day yesterday. At SDC, I did really good for all three meals, but when we went in the candy store they had just made peanut brittle. I took a sample and then the guy said he had bags that were still warm, so....after eating almost half the bag I abandoned it on a park bench. That is the only thing bad I ate, and it was 2 pounds worth! I'm not going to say I'm sensitive to peanuts just yet, as there was a lot of sugar. I'll have to try them alone. For my protein day I ate 2 egg McMuffins sans muffins, 2 grilled chicken breasts, a cheesestick and some rotisserie chicken. I also ate a handful of almonds for a snack. Since I lost a pound over what I had gained, I am pretty excited!

R2P3D2: weight 175

Well, I'm back at my LIW. I ate some sugar yesterday and not near enough protein. To day I am going to eat mostly just protein and see if I can't go back a couple pounds. I'm not sure why, but 173 sounded so much better, lol! As long as I stay under 177 I will be stabilized and VERY happy!!

R2P3D1: weight 173

Good morning phase 3!! I am now officially done with phase 2, yay! I say officiallly because I have been sneaking in a few p3 foods over the past couple days. My weight was 173 yesterday as well. For lunch on Thursday they had a nurses day luncheon and I ate a huge salad with walnuts, strawberries, blueberries and apples- with a rasberry vinagrette. It was so yummy. I also had my phase 2 meal of chicken and brocoli. And then I had 2 small pieces of dessert. I don't remember what I had for dinner. Yesterday I had a grilled chicken BLT salad from wendys with bbacon, cheese and real ranch dressing. I also ate quite a bit of angel food cake (ooops). Then for dinner I had 3 boiled eggs with mayo and hot sauce. They are mexican style, and sound gross but so good!

R2P2D71: Weight 174.2 VLCD#2 (no hCG)

Yay! I stayed the same! I was worried I might gain a little. Yesterday we had a cook-out at work, and I wasn't as strong as I had hoped. I ate a cheeseburger, small piece of pie and a brownie. Considering all the choices, I'm surprised I didn't eat more. And then the rest of the day I kept repeating "damage control" every time I would think about just blowing it since I had already. Then for dinner I just ate a delicious steak! I think I helped control the damage :)

OMG!! I am STARVING today. And my stomach is growling (loudly)for the first time in forever. I have not felt real hunger in so long, it is killing me. I think that maybe the hCG leaves your system faster when you use sublingual...I'll have to check on the forum. I'm going to go ahead and eat an apple, but I sure as heck hope I am not starving like this for both days...

R2P2D70: Weight 174.2 VLCD#1 (no hCG)

Well, I was hoping to be down more, but I will take it! I had planned for today to be my last, but forgot to bring my dose with me, so yesterday was LIW of 175. A nice, round number. And it is a nice number!! Exactly 70 pounds lost! I never thought this day would come. Today is going to be hard, although I don't expect to be hungry as there should still be hCG in my system. We are having our company cook-out today and a burger sounds so yummy! There are also tons of cookies, brownies, chips and other junk food sitting in the kitchen. Be strong, be strong!!

Yesterday for lunch I had the miracle noodles and shrimp again, and some strawberries. Then for dinner we went to subway and I got the oven roasted chicken breast, lettuce and a few tomatoes. Can't wait until Saturday, mug cake, here I come!

R2P2D69: Weight 175.0

Whoo-hoo!! This is the lowest I've been! Almost two pounds, I'm hoping for a repeat performance tomorrow, lol! TOM finally showed up, and really made yesterday hard on me. DH asked when I was going to stop putting hormones in my body and I snapped back that these are different hormones making me crazy right now!! I was soooo ready to just got to bed so it would all just go away. I was also ready to quit and eat everything in sight! Today I'm feeling better, especially after the awesome weigh-in! I couldn't get back to sleep after my 3 am pee-break, so I finally gave up and came into work at 5:30 [eeek]. I'm sure going to feel it when I get off at 6 PM!!

For lunch yesterday I ate shrimp sauteed with onions and miracle noodles. They were so yummy!! I put some hot pepper seasoning on it and it was delish! I ate my apple for a snack. I was hungry early, and having some head-rush problems (I've been asking about it on the forum), so decided to have my dinner early. Chicken breast and brocolli. Mmmmmm. It was about 5:30. Then on the way home I got chinese for the kids, since I wasn't hungry. But shortly after arriving home, I became so irritable and they were all driving me CRAZY!! I just wanted to eat every single carb I could find. Instead, I ate about 6 pieces of cashew chicken and a handful of cashews. I was really worried about the cashews because so many people have trouble with them. Maybe I will be lucky :D

R2P2D68: Weight 176.8.

Only half a pound...sigh. Well, at least it is moving in the right direction. I really need to average a pound a day in this last stretch! I want to get as low into the 170's as I can. That way, if I gain a little back I will still be in the 170's :0) I figure I may lose a few pounds on the last 3 days, so possibly 5 more pounds. Here's hoping!

Yesterday for lunch I wasn't hungry so I ate an apple. The girls and I went shopping and I planned to get a salad from McD's or Wendy's. Completely forgot about it! So we stopped at McD on the way home. I didn't get anything, but ate a big salad and steak when I got home. I am so excited about P3. It's just around the corner!

R2P2D67: Weight 177.4.

Yay! I'm actually down 3 pounds today! I was up 2 yesterday to 180.4. Friday at work we had an italian lunch fundraiser for Relay for Life. I paid my donation and just ate salad. I was so proud of myself...but then I saw the dessert table. OMG...one of the ladies made a white texas sheet cake. I had never experienced the wonderfullness of this cake before. Next thing I knew, I was eating my second piece. Then I went out for Mexican with my girlfriends...I ate chips with queso and guacamole, and then didn't eat any of my fajitas. I was so stuffed!! We sat at that table laughing and having a great time for 4 hours!! It was so worth it :)

I didn't take my drops very consistently, as this morning I have enough for 4 full days. So my plan is to continue through Wednesday...then Th-Sat VLCD, then Sunday start P3. That will be perfect because my dh likes to go to breakfast on Sunday mornings, AND it's Mother's Day. So I plan to have a big omelet for breakfast. We're going to a theme park also, and it will be somewhat difficult to find low-carb oferings...but last time the funnel cake made me feel ill so I won't have a problem avoiding it at all this time!!

R2P2D66: Weight 178.4

I'm up .2 and it is really a shock!! I am so terrible at this, I can't even go more than one day without cheating. Sigh! I'm glad this round will soon be over, and I can move onto phase 3. I hope that round 3- sometime in late june?? Won't be so hard. Yesterday I planned to do a steak day, but ended up mindlessly eating a package of oreos yesterday. A small pkg of 6. But still. I was so mad at myself!! Then for dinner I ate several rice krispy treats I had made and put guacamole on my chicken. Like I said, I feel I dodged a bullet by only gaining.2. I will do better today. Thts all I can do!

R2P2D65: Weight 178.2

Wel, this just sucks!! It's my own fault though! I cheated Friday through Monday~ like 4 extra days of loading. I finally weighed myself on Tuesday and it was 181.6. Yesterday was 180.2, and then today I lost 2 more of those pounds. I wish I could be like some of the ladies on the forum and lose 5 pounds tomorrow!! Boy that would be fabulous! I measured this morning and I only have 5 days of drops left. So my last day will be Monday, then 3 days of VLCD without the help of hCG (EEK!). So I will be on phase 3 Friday, just like planned. That means I really have to make these last days count. NO CHEATING THIS WEEKEND!!! Weekends are so hard for me for some reason. I can do this...5 days. Well, I guess it's really 8 days.

I've been off work all week with strep throat. It really stinks. This is the worst I have ever had it, I had to take pain killers the last 2 nights because the pain is so intense. Also, I am starting to get cramps, so I think TOM is lurking near. Give me a break!!

R2P2D61: Weight ??

Well, I've been really messing up lately. So badly I don't even want to weigh myself! On Friday we had a breakfast and I did okay, but definately cheated. It was also my sweetie pies birthday, so I made a mexican feast, including a homemade milk cake. I over-indulged in all that yummy goodness! Then on Saturday I tried to be good, but went to a birthday party with lots more yummy mexican food! So today, Sunday we are going to an italian place with the family. At this point I figure "what the hell"! I'm going to eat my favorite meal and a roll. I fit into a pair of 11/12 jeans yesterday so I'm feeling pretty good about myself. I am not going to let a number on the scale discourage me. But just in case, I'm staying away from it, lol!! I am going to dust myself off and get back on that horse tomorrow! I think I'll wait until Wednesday to weigh in.

R2P2D57: Weight 175.6

1.2 pounds! Yay! This puts me at a total of 70 pounds lost!! I am so excited! I realized my round is going to end sooner than I had thought. I remixed a new batch a couple days ago, and will just go until it is out. That should be about 12 or 13 more days (I think). I am very excited to be so close to phase 3, where I can eat mug cake and avocados again! I am also bummed that it is so close, because I won't make my goal of being in the 150's. But I am coming to peace with it, I will continue to lose inches and already look sooo much better than before!! Yesterday for lunch I had chicken, broccoli and strawberries. Then for dinner I had some tilapia cooked in apple cider vinegar. I was going to eat some zucchini, but never got around to it.

R2P2D56: Weight 176.8

Well, I feel like I'm on a treadmill and just not getting anywhere. I have been so busy and unable to keep up with this daily...I need to try to remember to do it first thing before the day gets crazy! I did really well at the wedding, and was disappointed that I didn't lose anything! So when dh asked if I wanted to go to breakfast with him WITHOUT any children, I was ecstatic! So yes, on Sunday I cheated. Yesterday I woke up to a gain and was at 179.0. I did an only protein day yesterday and lost 2.2 pounds. I only have 17 days left on this round, so I definately won't make my goal. But hopefully I will be in the low end of the 160's. Come on- 17 days with NO CHEATING!! I can do anything for 17 days...ANYTHING! Maybe if I keep telling myself this I will actually believe it ;)

R2P2D53: Weight 177.0

Well, My weight is still the same. It is really difficult to update my blog from my phone, and I haven't been on my laptop in quite awhile. On Thursday I went all day long without eating. I was sitting in class when I felt kinda dizzy and hot. I was really afraid I might pass out. It was so weird, I have never felt that way before. I went to the restroom, and noticed a little refridgerator, so I opened it up and there was a cheesestick in there. I had no money for the vending machine, and could tell my blood sugar had dropped so I ate the cheesestick. I feel so badly, I intend to replace it with a whole pack next week and a note. But then on Friday I had gained .4 pounds. Probably the d*%n cheesestick!! I was really good all day yesterday, until I got home. I'm not sure why I keep doing this, but I ended up eating quite a few Thin Mint cookies and then half a peanut butter sandwich. To my surprise, I had lost the .4 pounds.

Today was really hard. One of my best friends got married, and there was all kinds of YUMMY food at the reception. Including a chocolate fountain with bananas, strawberries, angel food cake, pretzels, etc. to dip in the chocolate. I ended up eating a big plateful of cabbage, some chicken breast in BBQ sauce and 6 strawberries!! I am so proud of myself! I also helped wash out the chocolate fountain, and it has oil mixed with it. I really hope I don't gain from just getting the chocolate on me- that will really upset me that I didn't eat any if I gain anyway!! Also, the BBQ sauce on the chicken has me worried, but it really was the best option. I hope the scale is down tomorrow. I danced for several hours, so maybe it will even out :)

R2P2D50: Weight 177.0

Yay me!! 2.6 pounds! I sure hope this keeps up, I'll meet my goal for sure. Yesterday was easy...it was a slow day and I wasn't hungry. I also wasn't faced with any temptations. I ate my McD Grilled chicken sald for lunch, & an apple. Then for dinner I just had my protein. I didn't want anything else. I have been stressed about tax day- we don't have everything we need in order to get the extension filed and time is running out. I am trying hard to keep it all together. By Friday I can breathe a big sigh of relief.

R2P2D49: Weight 179.6

Yay!! I'm still in the 170's. I was so afraid I would be in the mid-180's after that crazy weekend. It's not looking great to hit 150 before my trip...only 24 days of P2. Maybe I can be at 155 IF I am really, really good for these 24 days. I would have to average 1 pound a day, every day. I can only try my hardest and be happy with the outcome.

R2P2D48: No weigh in!

I decided that my birthday gift to myself would be to not weigh in today, lol! I completely lost my focus over the weekend, and do not want to know exactly how much damage I've done. Yesterday dh took me to the Olive Garden...enough said. Today I am back with full force, and have already had 60 ounces of water. I am going to make a come-back. It will probably take me most of the week to get to 177, but I will persevere. This is only a temporary setback...

R2P2D46: Weight 179.8

I haven't been able to keep my post updated lately. I don't have my laptop and it is so much more difficult on my phone. Basically I lost a little yesterday, but then gained a pound and a half today due to cheating AGAIN. I really wasn't going to, but there I was...manning the grill. It started off with "just a hotdog" and then a burger. It just got ugly after that. Oh well, sigh. At least I'm still in the 170's. I really need to get my focus back. I wish I could say I've eaten clean today, but unfortunately not. And then tomorrow is my birthday...that's gonna be tough. I willll do my best, and celebrate when I get to 150!

R2P2D44: Weight 178.6

I'm down .2 today. I am so excited! I cheated last night, and was fully expecting it to catch up with me...it still might tomorrow. I can't figure out why I keep doing this, as I was so excited to be in the 170's. Yesterday for lunch I had the blackened chicken salad from Backyard Burger. I picked off the carrots and didn't end up needing any dressing. It was yummy! Yes, I eat a lot of fast food still. At the beginning of Round 1 I tried really hard to NEVER eat at them, but right now my life is crazy with work, school, kids and the adoption. I don't have time to plan during the week and I got out of the cooking everything on Sunday routine. I do intend to get back to it and stop eating out so much, because it is expensive. But it hasn't affected my weight loss, lucky me! Then for dinner I grilled some chicken and steamed some broccoli, but ended up eating some of the breaded chicken I had for the children. Then I got into the Easter candy (sigh). I had a handful of peanut M&M's, several chocolate pistachios and a piece of french bread with butter on it. Ugh! I really need to stay away from carbs. I wanted to throw up so badly, but would never be able to do it intentionally. I was just hoping my body would take over and make me sick. However, it wasn't happy with me, and I spent some time in the bathroom if you know what I mean. I plan to eat really clean today and hopefully I won't gain (or stall) tomorrow.

Also, today is the 30 day mark on this round. Unless I hit immunity I plan to go another 30 days, then have 3 weeks of P3, and a few days of P4 before I go to Disney. Hopefully I'll stabilize and not gain too much on my trip.

R2P2D43: Weight 178.8

Wow! I busted in to the 170's with a bang! I am so thrilled. Last night I was really wanting to cheat. The Easter candy is all over the house- Peanut M&M's, PB eggs, mini snickers, etc. I really wanted to just gorge myself in all the chocolate wonderfulness. But then I told myself I will feel like crap (physically) tomorrow and then be upset I blew my shot at 170-land again. I DIDN'T DO IT!!! I kept thinking about how much better 179 would feel, and I was rewarded!!! For lunch yesterday I ate a Bacon Ranch Grilled Chicken Salad from McD's. I picked off the cheese and carrots, and some of the bacon. I also used about a third of the Balsamic Vinagrette packet. I had an apple for an afternoon snack, and then for dinner had scallops. It was not easy, but it was SO worth it! :D

R2P2D42: Weight 180.2

WOW!!! 3.6 pounds! I think I have found a trick that really works. After cheating so bad on Sunday and gaining 3 pounds, yesterday I didn't eat anything all day long. Then for dinner I ate 8 ounces of grilled chicken and an apple. Yep- kind of like a "Steak Day". Now the real test is to see if I drop anymore tomorrow, or if I am still going to stall for several days. My plan is to eat really clean today and "Hopefully" be at 179 in the morning. I am SO excited!! :D

R2P2D41: Weight 183.8

Sigh....I'm up again. If only I could stop cheating. I must admit, htough, that I did it intentionally this time. On Saturday I had my son's birthday party. I made chili for everybody...and chili dogs. I made my "legal" chili, and did really good but I did add just a little bit of cheese. I also ate 2 boiled eggs- we dyed eggs with the kids. When I weighed yesterday I was back up to 181. I was upset, since I did not have any cake, cookies or brownies. Then for Easter dinner I decided I was just going to cheat and have whatever I wanted, and face the consequences. As you can see, the consequences were another 3 pounds :( I know, I have only myself to blame. I have to stay on track, if I want to meet my goal of being in the 150's when I go to Disney in 58 days. Ugh!

R2P2D39: Weight 180.4

Another 1.4 pounds! I can hardly believe it! I now weigh what my license has said (untruthfully, of course) for about 10 years! I am so excited that I will be in the 170's tomorrow for sure! I am hoping this will motivate me to not cheat. Yesterday I had chili for lunch with strawberries. Then for dinner I had a 4 egg white scramble with onions and tomatoes cooked in a tiny bit of coconut oil. I have my sons bday party today, I hope I can stay on track!

R2P2D38: Weight 181.8

Wow! I lost 3 pounds...I sure hope it doesn't come back to haunt me! I ended up forgetting to eat lunch, was not hungry at all. I ended up eating an apple and doubling my protein for dinner. Whoo-hoo!

R2P2D38: Weight 184.8.

Well this stinks! I gained 1.2 pounds. I went off protocol yesterday, but still did good overall. For breakfast I had a carb-watch yogurt. Then for lunch I had grilled chicken breast and baked radishes. I ate 5 chocolate-mint wafer cookies- oops! Then I was on a carb frenzy but my dear friend talked me out of it. Then for dinner I ate a grilled chicken salad from Burger King for dinner. I hope this (and MORE) comes off in tomorrows weigh-in.

R2P2D37: Weight 183.6.

Exactly the same. Sigh... I'll never get into the 170's at this rate. I was pretty good yesterday, although I did have sugar free creamer and 2 cheeze-its. But for lunch I had a bowl of chili and an apple. Then for dinner I ate tilapia with ACV and baked radishes. I was sooooo good. It's not fair! I really wanted some caramel girl scout cookies, BAD! But I didn't eat them. Maybe the whoosh fairy will come tomorrow and take a few pounds with her :)

R2P2D36: Weight 183.6.

Wow! I can't believe how long I went without updating my blog! I was really good for a couple days, then really bad on the weekend. Saturday was TWO birthday parties, and Sunday my BFF was loading, so I had to join her. Yesterday I weighed in at 187.2!! I was super good yesterday. I had a McDonald's Grilled chicken salad (no cheese) and I didn't even put any dressing on it. I also drank a large Diet Dr Pepper. Then I had an apple for a snack. Then for dinner I ate a tilapia filet smothered in Bragg's apple cider vinegar- just like Long John Silver's! Okay, not really, but close enough for me! Then I ate a whole cucumber in some more of the vinegar. I was so stuffed. I hope I lose 2 pounds a day again!

And yes Robin...we need to stay focused and get into the 170's THIS WEEK!!

R2P2D31: Weight 185.2

I lost .8 pounds! I was stalled yesterday at 186, and too busy to update. I'm excited to be down, because I cheated yesterday for lunch. I ended up eating boneless wings from the WalMart deli that were covered in general sauce. I'm sure it is loaded with sugar. I also ate about 4 GS cookies. I wanted to go ahead and eat a Big Mac for dinner, since I had already cheated, but remembered what my friend told me..."damage control". SO- I decided to go with that. For dinner I only ate an apple and some rotisserie chicken. I didn't feel like eating my zuchinni. Glad it worked!! Thanks Elizabeth :)

R2P2D29: Weight 186.0

Yep, I gained 2 and a half pounds! That's actually less than I thought after my cheat yesterday. Sigh...I did it intentionally though. I am on spring break from work, so since I had the time I decided to cook something great for dh. I made chili verde (a pork dish), mexican rice and refried beans with cheese melted on them. I wasn't going to eat it, but then I thought it was definately worth it! Besides, I knew id still be in the 180's, so I am okay with it. I am really going to hit the water hard, and yerba mate to help flush it all from my system. If I were to cheat again, id be out of this number, and I DON'T want that!

R2P2D28: Weight 183.6

Yep, a stall. Serves me right for cheating so badly. Yesterday I decided to do a protein shake for lunch. It was a nice treat. Then for dinner I had planned on doing scallops, but had the worst headache in the world. I took a pain pill and felt so ill. I ended up just reheating a chicken breast, and I didn't even want to eat that. So I had no fruit or veggies yesterday at all. I'm not sure if that helped or hurt. I'll stay on protocol today and see what tomorrow brings.

R2P2D27: Weight 183.6

Well, I am up a pound. That was expected! Thanks Robin, I am not going to beat myself up. I am also happy with a little slower losses to feel "normal" sometimes (Not that I AM normal, lol). I have been really good today, I have only had water, a cup of yerba mate and a protein shake made with coffee. I have a headache so thought it might be lack of caffeine?? Could also be carb detox from all that sugar yesterday. For dinner I plan on having scallops and radishes again. They seem to be some of the lowest fat foods we're allowed, let's see if they work a miracle for me tomorrow!

R2P2D26: Weight 182.6

Well, it's 2 oz. But after my big losses the last few days I kind of expected that. For lunch yesterday I had a cup of my chili. The breakroom was filled with all kind of snacks, cheese dip and the most delicious looking cake with butterfinger candy on top I had ever seen! I did not touch a single thing!! It was hard, so hard. Then for dinner I ate a oven-roasted chicken breast salad from Subway. I was doing good, until dh couldn't eat his whole foot long sub. I ate about a quarter of it, bread, chipotle sause and all. It was so good! I forgot to eat a fruit, so maybe it was okay. I know I'll be up tomorrow. I was making PB&J sandwiches for the kiddos, and made myself one. As if that wasn't enough, I got into the Girl Scout cookies. I've been doing so well with NOT eating them. Oh, well. Too late now. I am content with losing a little slower if it means keeping my sanity sometimes. Now that I am mixing my own hCG at home, it is much cheaper so I can afford to waste some time. I just hope to lose another 30 pounds in the next 60 days... before my trip to Disney
World. I feel confident I can do it!!

R2P2D25: Weight 182.8.

Woo-hoo!! 2 more pounds! I can't believe I am so close to the 170's :) I'm glad this weekend I don't really have any social commitments, I may be able to stay on protocol. I do have to sell Girl Scout cookies tonight and tomorrow, luckily I am not craving them anymore. Right now I'm on a bread kick. I would love a warm roll with honey butter, mmmmm. But I would love to be 175 even more!! Yesterday I ate one-fourth of a banana cream donut from krispy kreme. It was so good and it satisfied me, shocking. Then I was so busy I didn't get a chance to eat lunch, but I did eat my apple. Then for dinner I ate some more of the rotisserie chicken and steamed broccoli. I wasn't hungry at all!

R2P2D25: Weight 184.8.

WOW! This is the lowest I have weighed since I can remember! Yesterday I ate a chiken salad from McDonald's for lunch and an apple. Then for dinner I had some scallops and baked radishes. I read on the forum that those 2 foods are some of the best to eat for weight loss, so I'm not sure if they helped or not. I feel like they did! I made the kids cheeseburgers and fries last night, and I wanted to cheat so bad. I'm really glad I didn't! :)

R2P2D24: Weight 186.6.

Another almost pound! Well, I am finally where I was pre-cheat...last THURSDAY! It has taken me a week to get over that cheating. I really hope it doesn't happen again. Yesterday I had some of my chicken chili for lunch (Mmmmmm) and an apple. Then for dinner I had rotisserie chicken form the store and cabbage. The chicken is probably full of fillers, but I didn't want to cook. Oh well. Today I fell like I really want something sweet. I hope my apple does it for me and I can stay strong!

R2P2D23: Weight 187.4.

Another 3 pounds!!! I am so excited. I am almost where I was before my string of cheats. I think I'll definately be there tomorrow. Yesterday I was not hungry at all. I ended up not eating lunch until almost 4:00!! I had a Sonic grilled chicken salad without the cheese. Then for dinner I was still stuffed, but felt like I should eat something. I just ate a cucumber- I couldn't even eat the whole thing. I guess the hCG is working really good now :) I hope it keeps doing the same!!!

R2P2D22: Weight 190.4.

Yes, I'm up :( But actually I'm down!! It took me awhile to get updated here. It was a long weekend. First of all, my shoulder is KILLING ME! I went to the doctor Thursday and he thought it was a pulled muscle. He gave me some drugs...but they haven't really helped except to sleep. The pain is still just as bad as it was. Also, I went out of town for a seminar. I tried to be good. Thursday night we ate at a steakhouse. I got a steak and steamed broccoli. I didn't even touch the rolls! Then Friday we had a salad bar for lunch, so all I ate was a huge salad. The only protein choices were turkey, ham and roast beef. Well they are all bad, so I just ate a little turkey. Then I was starving and ended up eating all the little snacks they gave us (trail mix, candy, chips...) Ugh! Then for dinner we ate Asian. I went with stir-fried chicken and cabbage, but ate the sauce and rice. This was probably full of MSG- causing a big gain. Then Sat. I had Mexican and threw all caution to the wind. Yesterday I weighed in at 194.4!!! So I ate strictly protocol, and took a detox bath. I'm down 4 pounds!! Yay! Now if I could be down another 4 pounds today I'll be right back where I was. Also TOM is nowhere to be found, so I was really worried...but the little plastic test said negative. Whew! I hope for the best...

R2P2D18: Weight 186.8.

I am just glad it was down! I didn't exactly eat on protocol yesterday, but I tried hard to not deviate too much. For lunch, we had a meeting at work and they brought in pizza and salad. I picked up one piece of the veggie pizza and a huge salad. I kinda picked at the pizza, ate a little less than half and then just ate the toppings. That was really hard as the crust is my favorite part. They also had really yummy looking desserts. I took a chocolate chip cookie/brownie combo thing. I took a tiny nibble and threw it away! Then for dinner, last minute a friend wanted to meet at a mexican restaurant. I ordered the grilled chicken breast and salad. I did end up eating some guacamole, cheese dip and chips. Afterwards, in typical "fatcat style", I figured I had already cheated so I would stop at Krispy Kreme or Andy's custard and just gorge myself. BUT I DIDN'T DO IT!!!!!!!!! I am so proud of myself. And I was still down .2. I am so excited to be back in the 180's and I am not going to blow it. This weekend I'll be out of town at a conference (leaving tonight) and it will be so hard. Wish me luck to still be in the 180's on Sunday!!!

R2P2D17: Weight 187.0. :<)

Yay! I am steadily going down! I am finally at the 30 pounds lost mark! Well, 30 pounds lost on hCG. I had lost 25 pounds on Herbalife prior to starting this, so I have lost 55 pounds total! I went from a tight size 20 to now wearing a size 14! I feel great! Yesterday I ate a chicken breast and brocolli for lunch. I was too full to eat my strawberries. Then for dinner my dh wanted cashew chicken. It smelled so good. I wanted to cheat and eat it, but instead I just ate one piece of chicken. Then, I had a lean ground beef patty smothered in spicy mustard and cucumbers, and an apple. And I'm down 2 pounds today! It was so worth NOT giving in to that cheat!!!

R2P2D16: Weight 189.0.

Yay! I am back in the 180's! And I fully intend to stay here for awhile...until I get to the 170's! Wow! Won't that feel good. Speaking of feeling good, I feel great today. My energy is up and I am not hungry, just feel great. Yesterday for lunch I ate some lean ground beef (taco style) wrapped in big lettuce leaves and strawberries. Then for dinner I had baked radishes and scallops. They were yummy!

Round 2 continues....

R2P2D15: Weight 190.4. Ugh! What is wrong with me? Everytime I get into the 180's I sabotage myself and end up right back here in the 190's. I was really good for lunch. I went to Panera and ate the Fuji Chicken Salad. My friend at work calls it the "Miracle" salad, as she loses every time she eats it. But then, for dinner I was heating up some tamales for the kids, and gave in. It was sooooo good! And worth it! I was done, but warming another one up for the kids and when I unwrapped it I saw waht looked like raisins. What the...??? Yes, it was a raisin. Turned out he bought some Pineapple tamales as well. Damn him!! So of course I had to taste it. It was so yummy I ate the whole thing! After looking them up online, it appears I ate 600 calories and 40 grams of fat worth of tamales- I am surprised I am only up a pound. I have got to get back on track. Sigh.

Round 2 begins!! Ding-ding-ding-ding ding!!!

R2P2D1 (round2, phase2, day1): Weight 195.6. Today is my first VLCD (very low calorie day)of the second round. I am up 5.6 pounds since the end of round 1, but I did cheat pretty badly (damn Girl Scout cookies) and I loaded yesterday. Oh, what fun it was :) I gave myself an injection today, and am so glad I only have 1 more for tomorrow. My hCG left a town called Hazelwood, Missouri this morning at like 5:30 am. I had to google it, and found out it is near St. Louis. So I'm not sure if it will arrive today or tomorrow, I guess it depends on when my mail carrier picks up his "load" for the day. Either way, I am going to do the injection tomorrow and start the sublingual on Wednesday. I am so excited to know the scale is going to go down very soon! At the staff meeting on Friday, people I haven't seen in months were complimenting me. I guess it's really noticable!! Of course, that didn't stop me from eating M&M's and cookies... I have to get back in the swing of things to plan out my 500 calorie days.

R2P2D2: Weight 192.8. Wow! Down almost 3 pounds! Hopefully I will be at LIW of 190 tommorrow. That would be super. Yesterday was actually really easy. Today I feel hungry, but I just now took my injection so need to give it time to get through my body. For lunch yesterday I ate a chicken breast patty, salad with Walden Farms dressing and strawberries. For dinner I had a lean hamburger patty and cucumbers with lime & Salt. I was strangely satisfied...but that's the beauty of the hCG!

R2P2D3: Weight 191.2. Well, there's another pound and a half...I was really expecting a bigger loss this early in the game, but maybe tomorrow. It just sucks that I was so far over my last weight from R1, and now it feels like I'm treading water just to get back there again so real progress can begin. Yesterday for lunch I had a chicken breast and cucumbers, along with an apple. Then for dinner I had a lean beef hamburger patty with my bbq sauce and a big salad. I have already started skipping my second fruit again. My colleague takes a protein shake for breakfast and it really accelerated her losses, I may try that starting tomorrow.

R2P2D4: Weight 190.0. I'm back to my LIW!!! Finally!! It sucks that it took 4 days of VLCD just to get to where I was 18 days ago! Oh well, keep pressing on. Yesterday for lunch my friend (who also on P2) decided to experiment with a Hardee's low-carb chicken sandwich. OMG!! It was so great! It had two chicken breasts, a slice of swiss cheese, a little bacon and a tiny bit of BBQ sauce. It was wrapped in lettuce. I ate the whole thing!! She was better disciplined than I, and only ate 1 breast. Next time I will ask for no BBQ sauce and extra lettuce. Also only 1 breast. For dinner I made some Italian sauce with big chunks of tomatoes and lean ground beef. It was really good! Tonight I'm going to eat it again with some low-carb noodles I found. They aren't low calorie, but have tons of protein (26 grams).

R2P2D5: Weight 189.0. Another pound! Yay!! And I'm back in the 180's! I dipped here briefly around valentine's day, but well, screwed that up! I am sooo stoked! I'm really worried about some upcoming events that will make it hard to stay on protocol, but I want that # to go down so I am going to give it my best effort. I am not going to give myself permission to cheat...not saying it won't happen, I'm just not giving myself permission. I am going to Branson for the weekend, then Monday morning we're having a brunch meeting at work, and then next weekend I am going to a conference. Ugh! Yesterday for breakfast I ate a Fiber1 bar. Mmmmm. I was worried it might make me gain. Then for lunch I ate a chicken breast, salad and strawberries. I also had honey mustard dressing I had made. Then for dinner I had tilapia and cauliflower. I also ended up eating 1 thin mint cookie. Just 1, though, I am so proud of myself!!

R2P2D6: Weight 189.4. Yesterday I ate some low carb noodles with my spaghetti sauce. They weren't very good. They were kind of tasteless and mushy. I don't think I cooked them too long, but maybe. For dinner I ate McDonald's nuggets and way too many Girl Scout cookies. Ugh! Why did I do it? At least I'm only up .4 pounds, but am sure I will feel terrible today.

R2P2D8: Weight 193.4. Ugh! I am up 4 pounds!! I basically cheated, cheated and then cheated some more. At one point, I decided I was just reloading and going to start again today. I really need to summon up some willpower. After taking a break, it is much harder to find my resolve. I have decided I am going to buy a new bathing suit at the end of March, no matter what size I am. My old one is falling off of me :) So maybe I will stay motivated with that goal in mind. Lots of people on the forum have said round 2 is HARD, and now I believe them!!! Hopefully I can ease some stress and stick to protocol faithfully. I am realizing I am sensitive to carbs. Every time I eat them I am up a LOT, and I feel bloated and swollen. I really need to cut them out almost entirely...

R2P2D9: Weight 193.2. Well, I'm down .2. Looks like maybe I can recover from the cheat days today. I want to kick myself in the rear for all the time I have wasted. I could really be down quite a bit by today. Oh well. I ate McDonald's for lunch yesterday. A side salad, chicken breast and apple dippers. For dinner I had a chicken sandwich from Sonic, and tried not to eat too much of the bread. I also ate a few Girl Scout thin mints. But I'm done now, I feel ill to my stomach today. I feel so much better when I stick to protocol.

R2P2D10: Weight 193.2. The same...Round 2 is sure hard to get in the swing of. I cheated, yet again! Last night was McTeacher's night. So I had 10 nuggets and a few fries. If that wasn't enough, I HAD to go to Krispy Kreme and eat a Banana Cream donut. I've been wanting one ever since I knew they were coming out in March. OMG!! It was sooooo good. I ate on protocol for lunch, so maybe that's why I didn't gain.

But, enough of this!! I am on Day10 and haven't lost any weight. WHY am I wasting my time and money? I am rededicating myself TODAY!! Just now eating lunch, I WANT TO SEE MY WEIGHT DROP! And yes, I meant to yell that out at the top of my lungs. I do not want to waste any more $$$...so here's hoping some karma (in the form of cast-iron willpower) comes my way!

R2P2D11: Weight 191.8. A pound and a half! Yesterday I ate a salad from subway for lunch. I was so stuffed, I could not eat my strawberries. Then for dinner I baked some radishes. I don't like radishes, but on the boards people were raving so I tried them. And they were GOOD! I will eat them regularly now! I also baked a new kind of fish (for me) Pollock. It was okay, but I like the tilapia better. Since my strawberries were "aging" quickly, I went ahead and threw them in the blender with half a scoop of Jay Robb egg white protein powder, water, ice and vanilla stevia. I was so satisfied :)

R2P2D12: Weight 189.2. WOWZA!! 2.6 pounds gone! I feel great today! It is the first day I have felt comfortable enough to wear some of the new size 14's I bought. But I did, and am getting so many compliments. One of my co-workers said I was "shrinking" before their eyes! Sure helps me stay motivated. Yesterday I ate an apple, cucmber and chicken breast for lunch. Then I ate 3 mini oreo's for a snack. For dinner I ate at Sonic. I got a grilled chicken salad without cheese. I didn't have any dressing so I put just a little bit of their fat-free italian on it. It has all kinds of bad stuff- sugar, corn syrup, etc. The entire packet only had 25 calories though, and I didn't even put a fourth of it on. I was a little worried because the chicken breast was really fatty. But I guess it worked for me!! Woo-hoo!!

R2P2D13: Weight 188.4. Yay! Maybe I'll be in the 170's soon! Yesterday for lunch I ate an apple and some chili. For dinner I ate a "pizza" that I found the recipe for on the forum. It uses chooped up cabbage, an egg and some grated mozzarella cheese. I put some italian spices on it and baked it, put a little tomato sauce and a little more cheese on it. It was pretty good. It definately helped with a pizza craving. I used two eggs so the "Crust" was a little like a quiche, but I like quiche :) Next time I'll try it with only 1 egg.

R2P2D14: Weight 189.2. Yes, I'm up. Not quite a pound though! I didn't intend to cheat yesterday, and it wasn't as bad as my previous cheats (at least I didn't think so at the time. I went to a restaurant with my cousins and planned to get a chicken salad. They didn't really have any that looked good, so I got a grilled chicken sandwich with swiss, tomatoes and avocado. I wasn't going to eat the bun, but it was so good ;) And I ate a few fries (luckily they weren't great). I also ate part of my daughters banana nut pancakes. Mmmmm. I've been doing really good today, and I'm hoping to be down tomorrow. I really hope that cheat doesn't stall me out for 3 or more days....

My order cleared customs this morning!! Yeah!!

I'm so excited! My order cleared customs at 1:30 AM! It doesn't say its left NY yet, but surely it will today! I will be back on P2 very soon. I am up 2 pounds today, ate a bunch of junk yesterday. We had a game night at work and it was so much fun. We played 2 games I've never seen before- Fact or Crap and LOSER! I was the loser :( one of the things that made me a "loser" is that I own a shirt with Mickey Mouse on it....come on, don't mess with MY mouse!! Hahaha! Well, I at cookies, M&Ms and lots of cheese/crackers. I deserve to be up. I should be doing a steak day today, bt I am driving up to St. Louis right now. Speaking of the Mouse- we are going to do our volunteer service to get free tickets to DisneyWorld. I have already eaten a whole sleeve of Girl Scout shortbread cookies with my coffee. Ugh! Steak day tomorrow for sure!!

Sunday update: I have been loading today. I think I am supposed to do a mini-load, but I kinda screwed that up! I am so stuffed, I think I am going to gain back the almost 30 pounds I lost overnight!! Of course I'm kidding :) My cousin gave me a few of her injections, so I can get started a little sooner. I don't know why I didn't think of it sooner! So I will be taking an injection (although I don't really want to) for the 1st 3 days, then switching to my drops. Surely I will have them ready for Wednesday morning! I don't want to get on the scale tommorrow. I was already up 4.6 pounds over my LIW before all this loading. I hope I'm not sick from all this crap... So tomorrow my P2 adventure begins. I am hoping to lose 21 pounds from my LIW of 190, as that will put me in the "overweight" classification and no longer in the "Obese" one. Of course I want to lose more, but that is my short term goal! ~169 pounds~

Week 7 is starting today...and a Phase 3 Break...

Day 43: Weight 190.2. That brings my total to just about 27 pounds in 6 weeks. That is WONDERFUL!! Not to mention I'm almost in the 180's! Man that feels good. Yesterday I ate strawberries, salad and chicken breast with my BBQ sauce for lunch. For dinner I ate tilapia (fish stick style) dipped in dijon horseradish and broccoli.

Now I am a little sad as I am going to have to take a break. I have been researching it and have come to the conclusion I am going to do something called "cycling". I am basically going to move onto Phase 3, but not stay there the entire 3-6 weeks like you are supposed to. The thing is, you don't lose more weight you just stay the same. I was really wanting to go down. The reason I have to cycle is that I quit taking the shots, and moved on to hhCG drops. I did great with them, but then ordered some crappy ones off eBay- which I am returning for a full refund. I have been so hungry, which is a clear sign the drops are NOT working. So I ordered some REAL hcg off the internet, and have to wait for it to come in to start over. I will be mixing it for sublingual use. Here's hoping for the best...

Day 44: Weight 190.0. Well, thank goodness it's down! I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I did not eat a single thing that was on protocol yesterday. For lunch I had some chicken chili I had made the day before, and had full intentions of eating that. But my twins were sick, and I was sure it was strep throat so off to urgent care we went (since it was Saturday). Well, it wasn't strep, it was just "a virus", of course. So on the way home the kids wanted McDonald's "cheeseburbers", so we stopped. I was going to get the grilled chicken patty and a side salad, but noticed they had a 50 piece chicken nugget meal. It was way cheaper than getting both of the girls their 6 piece nuggets, so I figured what the hell, I'll just eat a few of those. Well, I ate probably 6 or 7, some of their fries, and one of those Mac Snack wraps I've been wanting to try. Well SHIT!!! And then, pretty much the rest of the day I was soooo sick. I should have known better- even pre-diet McD's usually made me ill. But this was the sickest I've ever been. No, I did not throw up, but I wish I would have!! Let's just say I had to stay close to the bathroom all day... Then for dinner I was still sick feeling and did not want to eat any meat. Yuck! So I ate two slices of raisin toast. It was so good, and seemed to help calm my stomach down. So like I said, I am so lucky I was down .2 lbs today!

Also, for those of you who read the above post, I am still undecided but think I am not going to take that break. I think I'm going to go to the clinic tomorrow and get some more drops. I was thinking I might be able to lose 10 more pounds by the time my real hCG comes in. But then again, maybe my losses would resume to a pound a day if I took a break and started over. I am so on the fence, not quite sure what to do...

Day 45: Weight 190.0. Well, it's the same again. I deserve it with my big cheat. Yesterday I really didn't eat too much. I had an apple, chicken breast with bbq sauce for lunch. Then for dinner I had more chicken breast and salsa on it. Pretty boring day, really!

Day 46: Weight 194.4. Ouch! That hurt. I really thought about NOT posting it, but the whole purpose of this blog is to help myself and hopefully inspire others. I hope you have been inspired to never cheat!! I think my huge gain is a combination of several factors. Stress!! I can't remember having this much stress in my life EVER! TOM is coming back for a visit,
I did cheat 2 days ago and I am sick. I have been taking so much OTC crap it could be that. I have looked at all the labels and think it is all okay, but still. For lunch yesterday I had chicken chili and an avocado (forgot about that, could be it!) for lunch. I counted the tom as my veggie and the avocado as my fruit. Then for dinner I just had some chicken. No veggie, no fruit. Today I am trying something called an "egg day". We'll see if it helps bring me down tomorrow.

Phase 3 "BREAK" Day 1: Weight 193.4. Well, I am down a pound. I ate a total of 8 hard boiled eggs and 2 cheesesticks yesterday. That's all I ate all day long. I was really hoping for a bigger pay-off. I made my PM eggs into deviled eggs. I put dill relish and some walden farms ranch dressing with the yolks. Then I drizzled hot sauce all over them. Yummers!! Today I did a protein only day, and I really hope I lose another pound. I didn't do great with the water, so we'll see. Actually, the egg day was a little easier...

Phase 3 "BREAK" Day 2: Weight 190.4. Wow!! I lost 3 lbs!! I guess there's something to this low-carbing, huh?! I ate so much, I was sure I'd gain!

For breakfast I enjoyed CREAMER in my coffee, first time in over a month. Hope that doesn't come back to bite me...I also stopped at McDonald's and got 2 breakfast burritos, and just ate the filling out of the tortillas. I drank an Atkin's mocha shake mid-morning, it was actually really tasty! Then for lunch we had a meeting at work. There were sandwiches with croissants and King's Hawaiian rolls (Mmmmm!!), and someone brought homebaked brownies (damn them!) But all I ate was 4 slices of the ham, 3 of the provolone cheese and my water. I was so proud of myself. Then for dinner I ate an 8 oz. Filet Mignon, a cheesestick and some of the taco de asada meat my dh was eating (along w/ a teensy bit of avocado). I was so stuffed. It kinda felt like when I loaded, minus all the REALLY yummy stuff, haha!

Phase 3 "BREAK" Day 3: Weight 190.4. Stayed the same...since that is the point of Phase 3 I am glad. I am hoping to lose a little, but I guess as long as I don't gain I will be satisfied. Speaking of satisfied, boy am I eating a lot of food. Well, compared to Phase 3 anyway. Yesterday I had an Atkins shake for breakfast, and a couple of cheesesticks for a snack. For lunch I ate a TON of shrimp- it was fried in oil- and three more slices of the leftover ham and provolone cheese. For dinner I had a BLT Chicken Salad from Wendy's with real Ranch dressing. Mmmmm. Now that was good! :)

Phase 3 "Break" Day 4: Weight 189.6. Yay!!

For breakfast I had a 3 egg omelet with lots of ham and cheese in it. It was so good. I think I'm going to make this a regular breakfast. Since I leave at 6:30 am, I am going to make it the night before and then re-heat it when I get to work, hopefully it will still taste delicious. For lunch I had 2 cheesesticks, an Atkins shake and a "MUG CAKE". I got the recipe off the forum. OMG!!!! It was so good! I was really glad I had it, because I went to my daughters' Valentine's Day parties and was not even tempted a little by all that junk. Not a single bite. The pizza was from CiCi's, and it didn't look very good, so that saved me. If it had been from Domino's, I would have definately cheated. For dinner (BTW, I was soooo stuffed by now), I just ate a chicken breast in my special BBQ sauce. I hope I got in enough protein...

Phase 3 "Break" Day 5: Weight 189.6. I'm still in the 180's! I can't believe it!!

Yesterday was a busy day. I got up really early to go help my Girl Scout service unit sort cookies. My teenage sons and I spent three hours doing heavy duty lifting and carrying. Then I had to run out to do booth sales at the mall and Wal-Mart. For breakfast I just ate a cheesestick and my coffee. For lunch we were so hungry, we just stopped at Hardee's and I got a mushroom n swiss thickburger, but did not eat the bun. Then for dinner, at the mall I had subway. I got a roast beef foot long, with provolone, chipotle sauce and a few veggies. Again, I did not eat the bread. I REALLY wanted to though...I love bread.

Phase 3 "Break" Day 6: Weight 192.0. Well, it was too good to last, ahem. I started off really good and made my omelet. Then it was off to sell more of those damn cookies. On my way home my dh called and asked if I'd bring something home for lunch, so I got some cashew chicken. I wasn't really hungry, so I figured I'd just eat a little chicken with the breading removed. WRONG!! I ate breading and all, and a little rice. I didn't overeat or anything like usual. But THEN, I decided since I already cheated, I would have some Girl Scout cookies. And of course I ate too many :( They were good, but then I felt ill the rest of the night. Just a bloated, yucky type of ill...I didn't even eat anything for dinner. I think my gain could be from not getting enough protein and water also. Well, I guess it's a "Steak Day" for me today. I think I'll make it a "Steak & Shake Day", lol! I plan to have a protein shake if I get hungry before my steak dinner is allowed...

Phase 3 "Break" Day 7: Weight 194.6. Well, I am up 4.6 over LIW, definately doing a steak day today...but let me say, it WAS worth it!!! I also know it is a lot of water weight, because of all the carbs I ate yesterday...

The steak day didn't quite work out as I had hoped. I was craving these stupid Girl Scout cookies, so I made another mug cake (P3 legal). It worked, it really satisfied me. It's kind of a cross between a cake and a brownie. I really had to mess with the amount of sweetener to get it just right, but when I did it was so good. Whew, over that hurdle. Then, since I spent the entire weekend selling GS cookies, my dh wanted to take me out for a belated Valentine's Day dinner. So as I was getting ready, I thought we would go to a Mexican restaurant, or a chain restaurant where I could get fajitas. With no tortilla, rice or beans, I would be able to stick to P3 with no worries. BUT...dh had other ideas. He wanted Olive Garden. Mmmmmm. I haven't been there is forever!!! So I had to make a choice; convince him to go somewhere else...or go completely off-protocol. Looking at my weight gain, you can probably guess which I chose, lol!! But like I said, it was DEFINATELY worth it!! So I am confident a steak day today will get me back where I need to be (which is less than 192). I will eat nothing all day, drink lots of coffee, tea and WATER!!! Then for dinner I will eat a big steak and an apple. Wish me luck!!!

Phase 3 "Break" Day 8: Weight 191.6. Whoo-hoo!! The steak day worked! I am down 3 pounds...it wasn't all that bad either. I had a busy day, so didn't have time to notice if I was even hungry or not. I drank lots of water and yerba mate tea. I did have cream in my coffee for breakfast, however. Then for dinner, I ate a 10 oz New York strip. It was so good! I baked my apple with cinnamon and splenda. It was okay, but I didn't use a fuji apple and it wasn't as good as usual. I hope this weight stays off!

Phase 3 "Break" Day 9: Weight 190.0. I am back at my LIW! I can't wait to get my hCG and start actually going down again. It is STILL in US Customs. Yesterday I made a big omelet for breakfast again, and had SF creamer in my coffee. For lunch I had chicken chili (no beans, of course) and a mug cake. For dinner, I ate 6 chicken mcnuggets and 2 McDoubles with mac sauce on them- sans bread. Around bedtime, I was afraid I didn't get enough protein so I had a protein shake. I guess it helped!! I got up this morning and made some low-carb pancakes with SF syrup...they were pretty good!!

Phase 3 "Break" Day 10: Weight 190.6. It's up a little, but I must say I am stabilizing well!! I ate those pancakes for breakfast. For lunch I went to Chili's and had the fajitas (no tortilla) and must say they were so good!! I had the chicken and steak combo, guacamole, sour cream, lettuce and pico de gallo. I also ate one of dh's southwestern eggrolls. For dinner I had a mug cake and rotisserie chicken. Mmmmm! I really hope my hCG leaves NY today- I really want to get to 160!!

Wow! Week 6 is here! Total weight loss in 35 days- 23.4 lbs

Day 36: Weight 193.6. That means I only lost 3 pounds in week 5, but I cheated. If I hadn't cheated I know I would be closer to 30 pounds lost. My cheats have been really significant. But in all reality, on other diets I was unable to lose 3 pounds a week so I am still very happy!! My focus right now is to NOT CHEAT at all until Valentine's Day! My goal weight for Valentines Day is 180. That's a little less than a pound a day...and if I would quit cheating I might be able to pull it off. And then I plan to cheat for dinner that night, lol!

Speaking of cheating, I did again last night. After the Steak and Shake incident, and then last night I hope I've gotten it out of my system. Last night I had some of those frozen taquitos, dipped in cheese sauce and refried beans. I did the beans myself with no fat- so that is a plus. I also ate a few home-baked chocolate chip cookies, and a PEANUT BUTTER EGG!!! And you know what's weird, it wasn't as good as I was expecting. I didn't even eat the whole thing (?!) This of course is good news, maybe now I will quit fantasizing about them. But even better news- I was not up even an ounce this morning. I don't understand it, but I will take it!

Day 37: Weight 193.6. Ugh!! The same as 5 days ago. I sure hope I learned my lesson with cheating! Yesterday I made the BBQ sauce from the "Gourmet" cookbook and it was so good! I ate a grilled chicken breast on half a thin bun smothered in the BBQ. Mmmmm! I also ate a salad- yuck! I have got to find a way to enjoy salads again. For dinner my dh was dying to cook out- yes, in the SNOW :) So we had steak and zuchinni, cooked on the grill. It was so good! I baked an apple for dessert. I am really starting to get sick of this diet- I need some inspiration!

Day 38: Weight 193.2. Well, at least it is a smidgen down today. Yesterday for lunch I had another grilled chicken breast smothered in BBQ sauce, but wrapped it in one of my tortillas. I also ate half a grapefruit and a salad. I put some apple cider vinegar and lemon juice on it, it was edible. Need more ideas on that... For dinner I scrambled eggs and planned to smother them in salsa. When I got the salsa out of the fridge, the bottle was EMPTY! *&%@* teenagers!! I was so dissapointed. I put a little hot-wing sauce on them, but it just wasn't the same. Also, I was counting the tomatoes to be my veggie. That put me in a BAD mood for the rest of the evening!! Well, I got through it with no bodies to hide. For now...

Day 39: Weight 193.2. The same...again. Well, considering I ate a peanut butter & Jelly sandwich for dinner I got off lucky. Oh yeah, I forgot I ate some pringles too. So much for my goal of not cheating. I am definately a stress eater, and I let yesterday get to me. I am in control now, let's hope I stay there. For lunch yesterday I ate some soup I made with chicken, celery and miracle noodles in it. It was actually really yummy. And besides the PB&J accident, I ate a grapefruit. I hope this slip-up doesn't cost me 5 days of progress like the last one did.

Day 40: Weight 192.8. Yeah!! The scale is moving again!! Yesterday for lunch I ate a huge salad, an apple and a Jay Robb shake. For dinner I got some cucumbers and chicken breast off the salad bar at Dillons. I ate it during my very long, very boring class last night. I was so exhausted I went straight to bed when I got home.

Day 41: Weight 191.4. Wow! 1.4 pounds! I'm stoked!! Yesterday for lunch I ate some really delicious strawberries, Mmmmm! I also ate one of those special tortillas, with lettuce and some lean taco meat. Of course tons of salsa as well! It was very filling and satisfying. For dinner I wasn't hungry, so I ended up just eating a chicken breast with the BBQ sauce that I made. I smothered it, so am counting the tomato for my veggie. I also ate a taquito dipped in cheese sauce ;) Thank goodness that didn't come back to haunt me!!Today I am going to eat the same thing for lunch and see if tomorrow is another big loss.

DAy 42: Weight 191.0. Whoo-hoo! Another .4 pounds...I'm glad it's continuing to go down. I need to make it 9 more days (and hopefully 10 more pounds :)) without a single cheat! Yesterday I ate the lean ground beef "taco" salad again, but put the tortilla in the toaster oven to make it nice and crispy. Mmmmm...tostada! I ate strawberries for dessert, yummers! For dinner I ate some chicken "miracle" noodle soup and it was really good! Of course I put extra spicy in it. I have been craving chocolate chip cookies, homemade ones fesh out of the oven. I can't wait till phase 4...

Week 5....lost over 20 pounds in 4 weeks!!! Whoo-hoo!!

Day 29: Weight 196.6. That puts my total weight lost in the first 28 days at 20.4 pounds! I am soooo excited. I have managed to stay in one-derland all week, even with a cheat. If I don't cheat all all, I am hoping to be at 160 pounds by the middle of March. That is how much I weighed when I met the love of my life, so that is my goal. I might go a little lower eventually, but that's where I'm aiming. I figure that is 36 pounds away, and 50 days, so I should be able to do it. Then I will go to phase 3 for 3 weeks, and by my birthday I will be able to eat whatever I want!! I need to stay focused...

Today I am going to have a Jay Robb shake again for lunch, it is so much easier to not have to plan my meal. I am going to blend it up with my strawberries. Mmmm. Not sure about a veggie yet. I might make a soup. Depends on how I feel. TOM is wrapping up, and it was not a great week, so I may just veg out all day :)

Day 30: Weight 196.2. Well, .4 more gone. I was looking at a height/weight chart, and I need to get to 169 to be considered just "overweight" instead of obese. That will be a GREAT feeling!! I went to the mall today with my dh- NO KIDS!!! I was trying on pants and the 16's zipped up without a problem! I didn't even have to lay on the ground or ask hubby to help, lol!! I even found a pair of 14's I was planning to get anyway, and just wanted to see how close I was, and they FIT!!! I know they're all made differently, but I was on cloud 9! I have been "high on life" ever since. And any thought of cheating was completely out of my head. It made up for the kind of crappy week at work, although I have to walk back into the fire tomorrow I guess.

For lunch today I made the "miracle omelet", or so it's called. After I realized it helps me lose if I do it a couple times a week, I posted it on the forum. Now that's what everybody is calling it. I made it different today. I basically just scrambled my eggs and then put tons of salsa on it, so the tomatoes would be my veggie. I ate an apple for a snack, and then for dinner panfried tilapia and made some cabbage. I am really hoping for a big loss tomorrow. It will match my big head from fitting into those 14's, hahahaha!!

Day 31: Weight 195.4. Almost another pound! It's nice to see that number on the scale. I have been switching over from the injections to the HhCG drops, and haven't felt as hungry. Today feels pretty good, and I did not do an injection today. I don't think it matters, as I think the injections have lost their potency. I am going to stop at the store after work and get me a filet mignon. That sounds really good for dinner!

Day 32: Weight 194.8. That's another half pound! It is so exciting to see the number go down every day. I am planning to keep going until I get to my original goal of 160, and then switch to phase 3, if I can make it that long. I figure that will be about mid-March. Then I could go back to phase 2 if I wanted to lose a little more. Yesterday was tough. I wasn't hungry, but I wanted everything! Especially Reese's Peanut Butter Eggs. They are my all-time favorite candy! I am actually fantasizing about them. But I keep telling myself I am stronger than a little chocolate egg- It won't defeat me!! I was hoping to be down a little more, as I read about a "mini" steak day for phase 2. I didn't eat anything all day long and then for dinner I ate a filet and tomato. I guess it didn't work super great, but I am down!! I think if I'd eaten an apple for lunch it would have helped. I also need to start making sure I get all my water in! Also, I have tried to stop obsessing about the scale. It is driving me nuts!!! I've started just recording the weight it says the first time I get on it, and I don't get on it any other time like I used to. I hate it that every time I get on it, there is a different number!

Day 33: Weight 193.6! WOW! Over a pound! The # is getting smaller and smaller. I am going to start posting about what I ate the next day, so it corresponds with the amount lost a little better. I hope this doesn't confuse my loyal followers! Yesterday I ate some buffalo chicken breast and strawberries for lunch. I did not have time to eat my salad. Then for dinner I did something "off-protocol". I sliced my tilapia filet into 4 strips, got it a little wet and rolled it in crumbs. The crumbs were 1 melba toast and Mrs. Dash seasoning. Then I placed on foil and baked in the oven. They were crispy little fish sticks!! Would have been great to dip in something like horseradish or anything legal. But I put them on one of my special tortillas with some shredded cabbage and salsa to make a fish taco. It was really good! I will probably do this again! I haven't eaten my second fruit in such a long time. I am afraid if I add it back now I might not lose as well?

Day 34: Weight 194.0. I am up .4 pounds, but I am happy about that! ;) The reason I am happy is that I cheated last night. Yes, AGAIN!!! I don't know what's wrong with me.... We went down to Branson to get the refill on our injections, and then went shopping and stopped at Steak and Shake for dinner. My cousin- who is also doing this protocol- ordered a grilled chicken salad, with no cheese, bacon or croutons. And no dressing. I was thinking to order the same, but I need dressing!! So the more I thought about cheating with ranch dressing, the more I figured I may as well really cheat and enjoy it. So I ate a double steakburger with cheese fries, and a sugar cookie. There, I admitted it. The whole way home I felt indegestion and bloat. My cousin was very satisfied and felt great. Why did I do it??????? I didn't even eat a peanut butter egg, dammit!!! Back on track for me, I have got to have more self-restraint than this. It was not worth it, that's for sure.

Day 35: Weight 193.6. I'm back to my pre-cheat weight! It didn't set me back as far as I thought it would. Yesterday for lunch I ate some of my buffalo chili and an apple. I had to go to class, and didn't have time to eat dinner until really late. I wasn't hungry at all, so I considered just skipping dinner altogether. I felt like I should at least get some protein in before I went to bed, so I scrambled 3 eggs (only 1 yolk) and put a little salsa on top. I guess it worked!! I can't believe this finishes up my 5th week. Time flies when you're having fun!

Already to Week 4- Down a total of 17.6 pounds in 21 days!

Day 22: Weight 199.4. I am up .4 today. Okay, confession time. I cannot believe I am still in ONE-derland. I truly don't deserve to be. I cheated yesterday BIG TIME!! For lunch yesterday, the gang from work went to a Mexican restaurant. I should have just stayed at my desk, eating my 250 calories, but how depressing would that be?! So I went with them. I LOVE Mexican food, but resolved to be as good as possible. Since I wasn't really hungry, it helped, but man did that stuff smell good. So I ordered a chicken fajita taco salad, with no cheese or sour cream. I only ate about 3-4 chips TOTAL (a big accomplishment for me, who used to down 2 baskets by myself) and ate the chicken with the lettuce, the guacamole, a little of the beans (yes, with lard I'm sure) and about 1/4 of the yummy, crunchy shell. Not too horribly bad considering the deep-fried chimichangas a few of the girls had, Mmmm. I felt okay with my decision, but was certain I'd pay for it today. Okay, not a huge cheat, but IT GETS WORSE. I actually thought about NOT posting this, but decided hiding in a closet won't help matters. At Wal-Mart, in the long checkout line I decided I could eat one, only one, Reese's Peanut Butter Egg. So I bought one. And I ate it soooo slowly, and savored every tiny bite. I was so happy!! Then later, at home I'm not sure what happened. I think I blacked out, lol, as someone else took over my body and ate some of the boneless General chicken chunks from the deli, a good-sized piece of cake with buttercream icing and a cherry pop-tart. This was all over the course of a few hours, but WTF?!?! I drank 2 cups of hot tea and hoped I wouldn't be back over 200 pounds, but felt it was worth it if I was. And here's the amazing part- besides NOT being over 200, I don't feel the massive sense of defeat that I have when I cheated on any other diet. I am not tempted to just throw in the towel and quit. I am also not going to make that mistake again- I really want to maximize my losses while on this phase of the diet. For lunch I had my spinach scramble- hoping for a miracle!! I am skipping both fruits and only eating the protein for dinner. This is all advice I pieced together from the forum I visit. Oh, I also skipped my injection today, as some of the members of the forum say it helps against immunity and stretches your money a wee bit further. The hCG stays in your system for 3 days, so I should be okay. For dinner I ended up eating chicken and cabbage. I made a teriyaki sauce from a P2 cookbook and it was really good. I only had a tiny bit of cabbage, and no fruit today.

Day 23: Weight 199.8. I am up ANOTHER .4 today. I should have expected it...they say a cheat costs 3 or 4 days of progress. Hopefully the scale will start moving down again tomorrow. I am going to eat an apple today for sure, I think it probably helps more than it hurts. My mother is spending the weekend with us, so my dh is taking me out while we have a sitter. I want to go to IHOP and order the tilapia with broccoli. Sounds nice to just get out together.

We ended up going to a movie, and didn't have enough time for IHOP, so we went to McDonald's right before the movie. I ordered a grilled chicken patty and 2 side salads. They only charge $1 for the patty, which usually I get the sandwich for $4 and throw away everything else, so good to know. We saw "It's Complicated" and it was sooooo funny. Probably the funniest I've seen in a while :) I ate an apple for a snack, and for dinner I ate tilapia and cucumbers.

Day 24: Weight 198.2. WOW!! I dropped a pound and a half!! Yeah! That day of cheating cost me a couple days progress, but I'm making headway again. Even after eating a McD's...I thought for sure they put something in their chicken that would make me gain- like corn syrup or something. It seems to be hiding in EVERYTHING!! For lunch today I had fajita chicken on lettuce with lots of salsa. I ate an apple in between, and for dinner ate a ground beef patty and cucumbers.

Day 25: Weight 198.6. Up .4?!?! I'm not sure why, I pretty much stuck to protocol yesterday. I did drink the Yerba Mate tea, and the one I bought has vanilla oil in it. The kind folks on the forum said it probably isn't enough to matter, but I was up a little last time I used it to. Also, I did a lot of walking yesterday- out selling Girl Scout Cookies with my girls. Maybe I over did it? The cookies come in on February 13, so I am going to have a really hard time when they arrive. I LOVE the peanut butter patties, and can eat them by the box full. Lord, please have mercy...

Even though I am up a little today, I am going to go a little off-protocol. For lunch I brought some tuna mixed with WF mayo, and a "thin bun". My colleague told me about them, and I figure they are not much worse than the melba toast. We'll see how they taste, as well as my weight tomorrow. The thin bun was okay, would definately work if I were craving bread. Dinner was chicken and a little butterfinger bar. Darnit!! Why does chocolate call my name so loudly? Damn TOM!!

Day 26: Weight 198.6. The same. Well, I will take a stall over a gain anyday!! I am just glad I am still in one-derland. I hope the butterfinger doesn't cause my weight to go up tomorrow. Today for lunch I tried a Jay Robb egg white skake. It was surprisingly good. I added a few drops of vanilla creme stevia and it was even better. I think if I were to put it in the blender with ice it would be super yummy!! I ate an apple, but didn't have time to eat my cucumber. I started an internship and lets just say this is going to be a long 16 weeks! For dinner I am going to have filet mignon, not sure what veggie yet.

Day 27: Weight 198.4. Well, I'm just going to "ounce" my way down I guess. It is TOM, so I'm not too worried. I think I'll have a really big loss after the weekend to make up for this. I made a new pot of chili last night. I found some buffalo meat at the store and it was on sale, so I made my chili with that. We'll see how it tastes. It is super fine in texture, instead of the bigger chunks like the ground beef. I also have a half grapefruit to eat with it. Too bad I can't have my saltine crackers with it. I used to eat an entire sleeve with soups and chilis, so I guess it's a good thing!! I have absolutley no idea what I am going to have for dinner. I need to plan ahead so I don't get myself into a bad situation!!

Day 28: Weight 197.2. Down 1.2!! I stopped at McDonald's for dinner last night after class. I got the side salad, grilled chicken patty and apple dippers. Today I brought a Jay Robb shake for lunch again. I am having a grapefruit and cucumbers as well. I can't believe this is wrapping up 4 whole weeks on the program. I had hoped to be down a little more, but that's what I get for cheating...

Beginning Week 3.....down 12.2 pounds in two weeks!!

Day 15: Weight 204.8. That means I have gained 1/2 pound since yesterday. I am a little bummed. But that brings my total weight loss to 12.2 pounds in 14 days. That is still amazing! I was really hoping to be below the 200 pound mark this weekend, but now my goal is extended. I feel like I am so close, but so far away from it. Since I lost over 8 pounds the first week, that means I only lost like 4 the second week, so I may not be in ONE-derland until next weekend :( I was really hoping the coconut bark would be my saviour, but I guess not. I do plan on trying it again, just in case it was a fluke.

Today I am going to keep my menu clean. No Walden Farms, no chili (tomatoes make some people stall), and nothing creative. I already have a batch of cucumbers sitting in vinegar so they'll be ready for lunch, and then I will eat some shrimp. I am going to bake my apple, however :) And then for dinner I will have fajita style chicken on mixed greens. I also don't think I've been doing a great job getting all my water in, so I will focus on that today, too. Here's hoping week 3's loss is better than week 2 was!

Day 16: Weight 203.2. Whoo-hoo!! I am down 1.6 pounds from yesterday. I didn't eat dinner last night, but it wasn't intentional and I wasn't hungry at all. My daughter and I went to the mall, and I didn't even think about eating before I left. Everything at the mall is pure EVIL, so I didn't eat there. Since I wasn't hungry I figured I would just eat when I got home. I must admit, the food at the italian place looked good, but I definately didn't want to cheat on fast food. Olive Garden or Chili's, maybe :) By the time I got home I had forgotten I didn't eat dinner, lol, and went to bed.

Today my plan is to have my 4 eggs (but only 1 yolk) scrambled with some spinach. It would be much better with cheese, but I will be okay. Besides, another month or so and I can have cheese, sour cream, and the like!! I am going to have half a grapefruit at noon- I didn't used to like them, but now I LOVE them!! Probably all the sugar. I am going to have the fajita style chicken tonight, over some lettuce with salsa. Hopefully the scale will be my friend tomorrow as well!!

Day 17: Weight 201.6. OMG!! Another 1.6 pounds! I had to check three times to be certain. I really thought maybe I was dreaming! I am going to hit my goal of 199 this week!! This diet is actually the hardest thing I have ever done, but at the same time it is kind of easy. It is hard with 6 kids, not to lick the spoon when I cook for them. Mac N Cheese, peanut butter, etc. But I Haven't!!! The emotional hunger is the hard part. I find myself cleaning and reading ALOT lately. Never knew just how much time I spent in the kitchen, haha! Today I ate chili for lunch and a half a grapefruit. For dinner I ate tilapia and pickled cucumbers.

Day 18: Weight 201.0. Another half pound, yay!!! Also, my total weight lost is an even 16 pounds. I can hardly believe it. For lunch I tried a new recipe for chicken fried "rice". The rice is actually cabbage, cut up in rice size pieces. Then it is all stir-fried together with Bragg's amino acids (kinda like soy sauce, only healthy). It was pretty good. Definately NOT rice, but still a good dish. Next time I will probably leave the cabbage bigger like a traditional chinese dish. I ate an apple in between. For dinner I ate fajita style chicken with lots of salsa. It would be really good over a bed of lettuce, but I was out. It was super filling.

Day 19: Weight 200.8. Only .2 pounds, but I'll take it! I may see my goal of 199 sooner than I hoped! For lunch today I ate chili and half a grapefruit. The grapefruit is soooo good right now, very sweet. For dinner I am going to have the spinach scramble again. Maybe it will give me a big loss tomorrow!! Keep your fingers crossed for me!!! Today is the first day I have felt a little hunger. Not bad, but definately different than all the previous days. And at work they had a red-velvet cake from my favorite bakery for our meeting. It was driving me CRAZY! I had decided I would likely eat one bite. I left the conference room quickly. Still driving me crazy, a co-worker mentioned that it wasn't the most flavorful she had eaten, and suddenly I did not even want to try it! It is a miracle, but then I wasn't even the slightest bit tempted. Yay me!!

Day 20: Weight 199.4!!! For the first time in many, many years I am BELOW 200 pounds!! Whoo-hoo!! I have ben on cloud 9 all day long. For lunch I brought some ground lean meat, salsa and huge lettuce leaves to make some "Tacos". My colleague told me her husband has been eating low-carb tortillas and still losing. So I decided to try one for lunch. I put my lettuce, beef and salsa in it. Mmmmm...it was so satisfying and tasty. Now we will see what the scale says tomorrow. It will really suck if I am back in the 200's tomorrow. Keep your fingers crossed for me! For dinner I have fajita chicken with lettuce, and more salsa. I am going to eat an apple somewhere in there, just not sure when.

Day 21: Weight 199.0. Yay! I'm down another .4. As long as it doesn't go up, I will be a happy camper :) And more importantly, I am past the halfway mark. I can't believe how long it's been. I'm still trying to decide if I want to do another round immediately or go ahead and take a three week break. I'm leaning towards just getting it done!!

Today for lunch I brought fajita chicken, lettuce and pickled cucumbers. I dropped my jar of salsa last night and it shattered all over my driveway. I was so mad! So no flavor for me today, lol!! I did bring some of the ranch dressing spritzer- another tip from a colleague- so will be trying that out today as well. I have no idea what to do for dinner, I think I am out of my pre-cooked meals. TGIF!!

AMAZING story!! A side effect I didn't expect!

About 5 years ago I began having horrible foot pain. It was every day, and worsened with any physical activity. I have tried so many different inserts, orthotics, special shoes, foot slings, etc. I had to beg one of my children to rub my heel for me several nights a week or I could not even walk. And first thing in the morning, when I got out of bed I could not walk without excruciating pain.

Well, about 4 days ago I got out of bed and noticed my foot didn't hurt at all. I thought that it was weird, but was okay with it. The next day, same thing. I squeezed around on my foot and there was absolutley NO PAIN!! I wasn't sure why, but thought I would enjoy it until it comes back.

Yesterday I was reading the original hCG Diet protocol by Dr. Simeons written in the 50's. I found this little "chapter" and found it most interesting.

"The Painful Heel
In obese patients who have been trying desperately to keep their weight down by severe dieting, a curious symptom sometimes occurs. They complain of an unbearable pain in their heels which they feel only while standing or walking. As soon as they take the weight off their heels the pain ceases. These cases are the bane of the rheumatologists and orthopedic surgeons who have treated them before they come to us. All the usual investigations are entirely negative, and there is not the slightest response to anti- rheumatic medication or physiotherapy. The pain may be so severe that the patients are obliged to give up their occupation, and they are not infrequently labeled as a case of hysteria. When their heels are carefully examined one finds that the sole is softer than normal and that the heel bone - the calcaneus - can be distinctly felt, which is not the case in a normal foot.

We interpret the condition as a lack of the hard fatty pad on which the calcaneus rests and which protects both the bone and the skin of the sole from pressure. This fat is like a springy cushion which carries the weight of the body. Standing on a heel in which this fat is missing or reduced must obviously be very painful. In their efforts to keep their weight down these patients have consumed this normal structural fat.

Those patients who have a normal or subnormal weight while showing the typically obese fat deposits are made to eat to capacity, often much against their will, for one week. They gain weight rapidly but there is no improvement in the painful heels. They are then started on the routine HCG treatment. Overweight patients are treated immediately. In both cases the pain completely disappears in 10-20 days of dieting, usually around the 15th day of treatment, and so far no case has had a relapse though we have been able to follow up such patients for years.

We are particularly interested in these cases, as they furnish further proof of the contention that HCG + 500 Calories not only removes abnormal fat but actually permits normal fat to be replaced, in spite of the deficient food intake. It is certainly not so that the mere loss of weight reduces the pain, because it frequently disappears before the weight the patient had prior to the period of forced feeding is reached".

Had I read this before or even knew about it, I would feel my lack of pain was purely psychological. But I DIDN'T!!! And it was exactly on Day 10 that my pain dissipated. I am a believer!

You can read his entire original manuscript for FREE by cutting and pasting this link into your browser: http://www.hcgdietinfo.com/HCG_Diet_Dr_Simeons_Manuscript.htm

This site also has a really great forum filled with tons of information and friendly, helpful people.

Week 2 on hCG Diet...down 8.4 lbs. the first week :)

Wow! I can't believe it is already Saturday again, meaning 1 week through the diet. Last weekend I was loading, eating everthing I wanted. Oh, well. I've lost right on track with a pound a day...over 8 pounds in the first week! Woo-hoo! At this rate I will be at my first goal- which is to be below 200 pound mark- by next weekend!

Day 8: 1/2/2010 Weight 208.6. I'm down another half pound from yesterday. I can't wait until I'm in ONE-derland! I put 2 Tbs. of my suager free creamer in my coffee this morning. It is only 30 calories. Kind of an experiment to see if it stalls my weight loss. My dear husband is so impressed with me! First, he didn't think I was going to be able to do the injections, and that I have not cheated at all. His support makes a world of difference as well. He also says he thinks the diet is pretty healthy, since I am eating so many fresh fruits and vegetables, and that I still have energy. He feels if it wasn't working I would feel miserable. Speaking of energy- I've noticed I have A LOT more! I laid in bed a couple nights ago telling dh that I felt "weird", because I felt so normal. With the few calories I've been consuming I can't believe how normal I feel. And then yesterday and today I have tons of energy. I am going to go clean my room today- something I haven't felt like doing in a long time!!

Today I ate turkey and celery...I know turkey is not on the list, but that's what I had...and I simmered it in some chicken broth. We went to a movie, and when I walked in the smell of popcorn was a little overwhelming. I smelled the bucket, contemplating how much a few handfuls would set me back, and surprisingly it smelled HORRIBLE!! Kind of like stinky feet. It was propbably the type of oil/butter stuff they use. Whatever, it kept me from wanting to eat any! On our way home, the kids wanted to get Chinese takeout. I cringed. I was about to voice my protest, when my hubby said to go ahead and stop. He then said, "I won't get anything, since you can't. We'll just get some for the kids". I love him so much...he's always so thoughtful!! And even though I saw him sneak a few bites off the kids plates when he thought I wasn't looking, it was touching! So he sat down with me, and ate exactly what I ate. We had some lean ground beef, pickled cucmbers and baked apples. Totally legal food choices in a decadent environment!!

Day 9: 1/3/2010 Weight 208.6. Exactly the same as yesterday. I was bummed. But I am still having remarkable losses, so I will take this in stride. Today I made filet mignon again. No, I don't usually eat a lot of filet, but Harter House had a good deal so I bought 5. I also made cauliflower, steamed in microwave and put a little WF Alfredo. Somehow I managed to knock the entire dish on the floor. Luckily my filet was safely perched on it's own plate. So I cleaned up the cauliflower and went to get a towel. When I came back, my 18 year old son had my entire filet on a fork and was eating it!!! I was like, hey...what do you think you're doing??!! My entire family wants my food on this diet. Usually when I am on a diet I can't force it on them. It sure makes it easier to eat yummy food. Well I was so mad all I ate was the steak. I ate an apple a little later, and for dinner my wonderful husband decided to cook for me. I was worried. As I was cooking for the children, he was spicing up some tilapia filets. He was so cute, he would ask "can you have this?" and hold up various spices. It turned out so good! But the best part was he brought it to me, arranged on the plate with steamed broccoli artistically placed around it. This diet is turning us into gourmet chefs!! I hope it continues to be this easy.

Day 10: Weight 207.0!! Wow, I am down a total of 10 pounds now. Whoo Hoo! I can hardly believe it.

This was my first day back at work from the winter vacation. I packed the rest of my pickled cucumbers, an orange and some meatballs I had made and frozen. It was a decent meal and I got to eat with my coworkers and feel "normal". They had a welcome back breakfast, with pastrys, muffins, fruit, etc. I went back and took an oatmeal chocolate chip muffin (again to fit in, lol), but wrapped it up to take to my daughters. I also took quite a few orange segments and saved them to eat with my lunch. For dinner I made some buffalo chicken chunks and broiled a zuchinni. I was going to eat my strawberries, but was so full I decided to eat them later. Then I ended up forgetting about them.

Day 11: Weight 206.6. At least I'm down. I will take any movement of the scale in a downward direction :).

I made a foil pack last night with asparagus and a tilapia filet. I seasoned it (with dear hubby's help) and brought it to work today. I'm going to pop it in our toaster oven and hope for the best!! It turned out really yummy, although it took forever to cook and everybody was complaining about the burning smell from the toaster oven. I think it needs cleaned...

Tonight we had a Girl Scout cookie rally. I'm a troop leader, and we are going to have over 3,000 boxes of cookies in my living room next month. I'm not quite sure how I am going to cope with that. If it's like I have been feeling, it won't be too much of a problem for me. Like after the meeting, I stopped and got my daughters some McDonalds. At first the smell was so good. I said "Give me a couple fries" and put my hand back. She was taking forever (luckily) and visions of the grease vats they were fried in just popped into my head. I've never had that happen, and I wasn't even trying to resist them. But I suddenly did not want them, and did not eat a single one!! I am totally SHOCKED myself. I went home and cooked up my buffalo chicken chunks, and sliced up a cucumber. I ate it with a couple tablespoons of WF Ranch dressing. It is runny, but tastes okay. I again wasn't hungry so I skipped my second fruit.

Day 12: Weight 205.6. Another pound!! It is AMAZING watching the scale go down every single day. I just can't describe the feeling!! And I am also amazed at how much energy I have. With the little bit I've been eating it just does not seem possible. But I will sure take it! I haven't felt this great in years.

For lunch today I brought some buffalo chicken chunks (yeah, I'm addicted)and some cauliflower. I plan on eating my orange right at noon, it looks really good today! Well, I was completely FULL after my lunch, I did not eat my orange. I felt like I had over-eaten at a buffet and had only eaten 1/3rd of my chicken. I forced myself to eat it anyway, and felt ill for it. Then I started getting a headache. I was gettng worried about it, especially when advil wasn't helping much. On my way home from work it dawned on me- I didn't have my coffee this morning! That's why I have a headache. So I drank a couple cups of coffee and the headache was gone! Wow, I guess I'm addicted to caffeine and didn't realize it. For dinner I tried some "miracle noodles" with my shrimp. I stir-fried them in a tiny bit of coconut oil (it's supposed to be okay on this diet, guess I'l find out tomorrow). They had a tough, kinda chewy texture to them. I wasn't too impressed, but they are full of fiber so I went ahead and ate them. I will try them again in some homemade chicken soup to see if they have a different texture. Again I felt so full, but managed to eat an apple as a bedtime snack. It was then that I realized I forgot to eat a vegetable with my dinner. Oooops!

Day 13: Weight 204.8. Almost a pound! I'll take it. I drank three cups of coffee this morning! It's a snow day, and being at home, kinda bored makes me want to eat. But my results so far are keeping me from raiding the kitchen. DH brought home some dougnuts for the kiddos, and I had to stay out of the kitchen. They looked soooo good. I used to be addicted to doughnuts. But I resisted and conquered the fat laden, sugar filled demons! Victory is mine!

Last night I made a pot of (legal) chili. I put in 2 cans of diced tomatoes with chilis, 1 tiny can of tomato paste and half a packet of chili seasoning. I couldn't believe the ingredients in most of the seasoning packets! Most of them have MSG, flour, and several have sugar. I found one at Dillon's that only has chili pepper, spices, salt and garlic. It is called Amazing Taste, and was only 99 cents. I also put more garlic- can't have too much- water to desired consistency and 300 grams of 96/4 browned ground beef. I planned to put diced onions but guess who forgot to buy onions?? I boiled it and then let it simmer for a long time. I sampled it and it was yummy! Too bad I can't put cheese and sour cream on it- not until phase 3 anyway!! So I divided it into 3 servings and put in fridge. Guess what I'm having for lunch?! I also bought some Melba toast since it is allowed on Dr. Simeon's original protocol and plan to have that with it. I can't wait. I'm going to eat half a grapefruit at noon. Okay...so the chili was AWESOME!! I didn't even miss the beans! For dinner I ate the last of my buffalo chicken chunks. I shredded my cauliflower and sauteed it in a teeny bit of chicken broth. It looked like rice. It actually kind of felt like I was eating rice. Very satisfying!! For dessert I put my strawberries (frozen) in the blender with 1 cup of water and 3 packets of splenda. It will be better with vanilla stevia, but I haven't got any yet. I put it in the freezer and keep stirring it every 15 minutes or so. Right now it looks like a slushie, and it tastes pretty decent. And because of the water it looks like a lot. When I get my stevia I have a mock ice cream recipe to try!!

Day 14: Weight 204.2. Another 1/2 pound!! Yea! I wonder if I hadn't of eaten that Melba toast I might have lost a full pound? Oh well, the world may never know :) I am totally fine with 1/2 pound losses. Especially since I am still averaging 1 pound per day.

For lunch I ate another serving of chili. It is so filling. I was too full to eat my apple until just now. For dinner I am having Filet Mignon and cauliflower. I steamed the cauli and then put it in the blender with garlic salt and a little salt. It looks and feels exactly like mashed potatoes! I tried a bite before putting in the fridge, and the likeness is amazing. Now, don't get me wrong, it still has a cauliflowery taste, but I bet if you seasoned it just right it would be a good substitute if you were craving them. I plan to put some I can't believe it's not butter spray and a little ranch dressing (WF of course)to make it creamier. I won't get to eat my second fruit since I ate the apple so late.

I also tried something completely off protocol. I mixed together a TBSP of coconut oil, a TBSP of cocoa powder and a packet of splenda. I put it in waxed paper in the fridge and let it get solid. It had a little grainy texture, but I think it was the splenda. I will make it with stevia when I get some. But the reason I tried this is not because I was craving chocolate, but because a lot of people on the forum said it actually helps weight loss. I guess we'll find out tomorrow! It also is supposed to help prevent gallbladder problems in people who have pre-existing problems, which I do.