R2P2D66: Weight 178.4

I'm up .2 and it is really a shock!! I am so terrible at this, I can't even go more than one day without cheating. Sigh! I'm glad this round will soon be over, and I can move onto phase 3. I hope that round 3- sometime in late june?? Won't be so hard. Yesterday I planned to do a steak day, but ended up mindlessly eating a package of oreos yesterday. A small pkg of 6. But still. I was so mad at myself!! Then for dinner I ate several rice krispy treats I had made and put guacamole on my chicken. Like I said, I feel I dodged a bullet by only gaining.2. I will do better today. Thts all I can do!

R2P2D65: Weight 178.2

Wel, this just sucks!! It's my own fault though! I cheated Friday through Monday~ like 4 extra days of loading. I finally weighed myself on Tuesday and it was 181.6. Yesterday was 180.2, and then today I lost 2 more of those pounds. I wish I could be like some of the ladies on the forum and lose 5 pounds tomorrow!! Boy that would be fabulous! I measured this morning and I only have 5 days of drops left. So my last day will be Monday, then 3 days of VLCD without the help of hCG (EEK!). So I will be on phase 3 Friday, just like planned. That means I really have to make these last days count. NO CHEATING THIS WEEKEND!!! Weekends are so hard for me for some reason. I can do this...5 days. Well, I guess it's really 8 days.

I've been off work all week with strep throat. It really stinks. This is the worst I have ever had it, I had to take pain killers the last 2 nights because the pain is so intense. Also, I am starting to get cramps, so I think TOM is lurking near. Give me a break!!

R2P2D61: Weight ??

Well, I've been really messing up lately. So badly I don't even want to weigh myself! On Friday we had a breakfast and I did okay, but definately cheated. It was also my sweetie pies birthday, so I made a mexican feast, including a homemade milk cake. I over-indulged in all that yummy goodness! Then on Saturday I tried to be good, but went to a birthday party with lots more yummy mexican food! So today, Sunday we are going to an italian place with the family. At this point I figure "what the hell"! I'm going to eat my favorite meal and a roll. I fit into a pair of 11/12 jeans yesterday so I'm feeling pretty good about myself. I am not going to let a number on the scale discourage me. But just in case, I'm staying away from it, lol!! I am going to dust myself off and get back on that horse tomorrow! I think I'll wait until Wednesday to weigh in.

R2P2D57: Weight 175.6

1.2 pounds! Yay! This puts me at a total of 70 pounds lost!! I am so excited! I realized my round is going to end sooner than I had thought. I remixed a new batch a couple days ago, and will just go until it is out. That should be about 12 or 13 more days (I think). I am very excited to be so close to phase 3, where I can eat mug cake and avocados again! I am also bummed that it is so close, because I won't make my goal of being in the 150's. But I am coming to peace with it, I will continue to lose inches and already look sooo much better than before!! Yesterday for lunch I had chicken, broccoli and strawberries. Then for dinner I had some tilapia cooked in apple cider vinegar. I was going to eat some zucchini, but never got around to it.

R2P2D56: Weight 176.8

Well, I feel like I'm on a treadmill and just not getting anywhere. I have been so busy and unable to keep up with this daily...I need to try to remember to do it first thing before the day gets crazy! I did really well at the wedding, and was disappointed that I didn't lose anything! So when dh asked if I wanted to go to breakfast with him WITHOUT any children, I was ecstatic! So yes, on Sunday I cheated. Yesterday I woke up to a gain and was at 179.0. I did an only protein day yesterday and lost 2.2 pounds. I only have 17 days left on this round, so I definately won't make my goal. But hopefully I will be in the low end of the 160's. Come on- 17 days with NO CHEATING!! I can do anything for 17 days...ANYTHING! Maybe if I keep telling myself this I will actually believe it ;)

R2P2D53: Weight 177.0

Well, My weight is still the same. It is really difficult to update my blog from my phone, and I haven't been on my laptop in quite awhile. On Thursday I went all day long without eating. I was sitting in class when I felt kinda dizzy and hot. I was really afraid I might pass out. It was so weird, I have never felt that way before. I went to the restroom, and noticed a little refridgerator, so I opened it up and there was a cheesestick in there. I had no money for the vending machine, and could tell my blood sugar had dropped so I ate the cheesestick. I feel so badly, I intend to replace it with a whole pack next week and a note. But then on Friday I had gained .4 pounds. Probably the d*%n cheesestick!! I was really good all day yesterday, until I got home. I'm not sure why I keep doing this, but I ended up eating quite a few Thin Mint cookies and then half a peanut butter sandwich. To my surprise, I had lost the .4 pounds.

Today was really hard. One of my best friends got married, and there was all kinds of YUMMY food at the reception. Including a chocolate fountain with bananas, strawberries, angel food cake, pretzels, etc. to dip in the chocolate. I ended up eating a big plateful of cabbage, some chicken breast in BBQ sauce and 6 strawberries!! I am so proud of myself! I also helped wash out the chocolate fountain, and it has oil mixed with it. I really hope I don't gain from just getting the chocolate on me- that will really upset me that I didn't eat any if I gain anyway!! Also, the BBQ sauce on the chicken has me worried, but it really was the best option. I hope the scale is down tomorrow. I danced for several hours, so maybe it will even out :)

R2P2D50: Weight 177.0

Yay me!! 2.6 pounds! I sure hope this keeps up, I'll meet my goal for sure. Yesterday was easy...it was a slow day and I wasn't hungry. I also wasn't faced with any temptations. I ate my McD Grilled chicken sald for lunch, & an apple. Then for dinner I just had my protein. I didn't want anything else. I have been stressed about tax day- we don't have everything we need in order to get the extension filed and time is running out. I am trying hard to keep it all together. By Friday I can breathe a big sigh of relief.

R2P2D49: Weight 179.6

Yay!! I'm still in the 170's. I was so afraid I would be in the mid-180's after that crazy weekend. It's not looking great to hit 150 before my trip...only 24 days of P2. Maybe I can be at 155 IF I am really, really good for these 24 days. I would have to average 1 pound a day, every day. I can only try my hardest and be happy with the outcome.

R2P2D48: No weigh in!

I decided that my birthday gift to myself would be to not weigh in today, lol! I completely lost my focus over the weekend, and do not want to know exactly how much damage I've done. Yesterday dh took me to the Olive Garden...enough said. Today I am back with full force, and have already had 60 ounces of water. I am going to make a come-back. It will probably take me most of the week to get to 177, but I will persevere. This is only a temporary setback...

R2P2D46: Weight 179.8

I haven't been able to keep my post updated lately. I don't have my laptop and it is so much more difficult on my phone. Basically I lost a little yesterday, but then gained a pound and a half today due to cheating AGAIN. I really wasn't going to, but there I was...manning the grill. It started off with "just a hotdog" and then a burger. It just got ugly after that. Oh well, sigh. At least I'm still in the 170's. I really need to get my focus back. I wish I could say I've eaten clean today, but unfortunately not. And then tomorrow is my birthday...that's gonna be tough. I willll do my best, and celebrate when I get to 150!

R2P2D44: Weight 178.6

I'm down .2 today. I am so excited! I cheated last night, and was fully expecting it to catch up with me...it still might tomorrow. I can't figure out why I keep doing this, as I was so excited to be in the 170's. Yesterday for lunch I had the blackened chicken salad from Backyard Burger. I picked off the carrots and didn't end up needing any dressing. It was yummy! Yes, I eat a lot of fast food still. At the beginning of Round 1 I tried really hard to NEVER eat at them, but right now my life is crazy with work, school, kids and the adoption. I don't have time to plan during the week and I got out of the cooking everything on Sunday routine. I do intend to get back to it and stop eating out so much, because it is expensive. But it hasn't affected my weight loss, lucky me! Then for dinner I grilled some chicken and steamed some broccoli, but ended up eating some of the breaded chicken I had for the children. Then I got into the Easter candy (sigh). I had a handful of peanut M&M's, several chocolate pistachios and a piece of french bread with butter on it. Ugh! I really need to stay away from carbs. I wanted to throw up so badly, but would never be able to do it intentionally. I was just hoping my body would take over and make me sick. However, it wasn't happy with me, and I spent some time in the bathroom if you know what I mean. I plan to eat really clean today and hopefully I won't gain (or stall) tomorrow.

Also, today is the 30 day mark on this round. Unless I hit immunity I plan to go another 30 days, then have 3 weeks of P3, and a few days of P4 before I go to Disney. Hopefully I'll stabilize and not gain too much on my trip.

R2P2D43: Weight 178.8

Wow! I busted in to the 170's with a bang! I am so thrilled. Last night I was really wanting to cheat. The Easter candy is all over the house- Peanut M&M's, PB eggs, mini snickers, etc. I really wanted to just gorge myself in all the chocolate wonderfulness. But then I told myself I will feel like crap (physically) tomorrow and then be upset I blew my shot at 170-land again. I DIDN'T DO IT!!! I kept thinking about how much better 179 would feel, and I was rewarded!!! For lunch yesterday I ate a Bacon Ranch Grilled Chicken Salad from McD's. I picked off the cheese and carrots, and some of the bacon. I also used about a third of the Balsamic Vinagrette packet. I had an apple for an afternoon snack, and then for dinner had scallops. It was not easy, but it was SO worth it! :D

R2P2D42: Weight 180.2

WOW!!! 3.6 pounds! I think I have found a trick that really works. After cheating so bad on Sunday and gaining 3 pounds, yesterday I didn't eat anything all day long. Then for dinner I ate 8 ounces of grilled chicken and an apple. Yep- kind of like a "Steak Day". Now the real test is to see if I drop anymore tomorrow, or if I am still going to stall for several days. My plan is to eat really clean today and "Hopefully" be at 179 in the morning. I am SO excited!! :D

R2P2D41: Weight 183.8

Sigh....I'm up again. If only I could stop cheating. I must admit, htough, that I did it intentionally this time. On Saturday I had my son's birthday party. I made chili for everybody...and chili dogs. I made my "legal" chili, and did really good but I did add just a little bit of cheese. I also ate 2 boiled eggs- we dyed eggs with the kids. When I weighed yesterday I was back up to 181. I was upset, since I did not have any cake, cookies or brownies. Then for Easter dinner I decided I was just going to cheat and have whatever I wanted, and face the consequences. As you can see, the consequences were another 3 pounds :( I know, I have only myself to blame. I have to stay on track, if I want to meet my goal of being in the 150's when I go to Disney in 58 days. Ugh!

R2P2D39: Weight 180.4

Another 1.4 pounds! I can hardly believe it! I now weigh what my license has said (untruthfully, of course) for about 10 years! I am so excited that I will be in the 170's tomorrow for sure! I am hoping this will motivate me to not cheat. Yesterday I had chili for lunch with strawberries. Then for dinner I had a 4 egg white scramble with onions and tomatoes cooked in a tiny bit of coconut oil. I have my sons bday party today, I hope I can stay on track!

R2P2D38: Weight 181.8

Wow! I lost 3 pounds...I sure hope it doesn't come back to haunt me! I ended up forgetting to eat lunch, was not hungry at all. I ended up eating an apple and doubling my protein for dinner. Whoo-hoo!

R2P2D38: Weight 184.8.

Well this stinks! I gained 1.2 pounds. I went off protocol yesterday, but still did good overall. For breakfast I had a carb-watch yogurt. Then for lunch I had grilled chicken breast and baked radishes. I ate 5 chocolate-mint wafer cookies- oops! Then I was on a carb frenzy but my dear friend talked me out of it. Then for dinner I ate a grilled chicken salad from Burger King for dinner. I hope this (and MORE) comes off in tomorrows weigh-in.